Angela Aki 手紙 ～拝啓 十五の君へ～

Even though I couldn't understand the lyrics when I first heard it, this song just had all the feels simply from the piano and vocals. I realised there's a Mandarin version of this song (which probably explains why it sounded familiar) but nahhh original is good hahaha.


Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

I’m 15 and there’s something worrying me
That I can’t talk to anyone about

If I write a letter to my future self,
Surely I could confide truly to myself

Now it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
I'm someone who is about to disappear
What words should I trust to continue?
This heart has been shattered too many times,
though it hurts me, I live the present
Now I live the present

Dear you,
Thanks to the 15 years old you
I have something to tell you

If you keep asking yourself what and where you should be
The answer will become clear

The stormy sea of youth is hard but
A boat of dreams will take you to the edge of tomorrow

Now, don't be defeated, don't cry
When you feel like you’re going to disappear
Just believe in your own voice to keep walking
Even an adult like me gets hurt and has sleepless nights
But I'm living the bittersweet present

There's meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing

Now it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
I'm someone who is about to disappear
What words should I trust to continue?

Now, don't be defeated, don't cry
When you feel like you’re going to disappear
Just believe in your own voice to keep walking

No matter what stage of your life you’re in
You can’t get by without going through sadness
Show me a smile, let’s live in the present
Let’s live in the present

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness

I almost wanted to post this photo on insta:

HAHAHA but for the sake of Nic I decided not to :P Well at least his eyes were not closed.....but not fully opened either hehehehe.

Macau 2016

Went for a short trip to Macau with my parents and relatives last week. The last time I had been to Macau was around 5 years ago? After visiting Macau twice, I'd say that both trips can be summarised in 3 words - food, casino and hotel-hopping. That's really all about it... Not that I was able to enter the casino 5 years ago though haha :p

Thought I should add some photos to this blog so here goes!

 First on the list - Egg tarts!!! ^^ It's one of the most famous shops in Macau that sells egg tarts. Crispy and the filling wasn't overly sweet, unlike most other egg tarts.

Where we got the egg tarts from. Weekdays are much less crowded than on weekends!

Macau - the Las Vegas of Asia.

(And no, I'm not promoting this casino in particular hahaha.)

Made my dad take a few snaps just to take this photo lol. Now you know where I get my poor aesthetic sense from :p

Casino time! :P Roulette all the way for 3 nights HAHAHA. It's a game of statistics all right... But I ended up with a net amount of -$20 sgd hahahaha.

My mum sitting like a kid in front of the jackpot machine ^^

Love the ambience at this traditional teahouse where we had dim sum! Featuring Mr Mao :p

Aftermath of the meal :P

Disclaimer: I did not eat all that on my own LOL.

More fooooood! These are bird's nest egg tarts. Tastes much sweeter than the regular egg tart, but I kinda liked it because they only used egg white for the filling. 

Bargaining in progress! It's a seafood place where you go and choose your seafood first then get the people to cook for you (kinda like Noryangjin market in Korea).

I swear I hate bargaining sooooo much. Felt so tired even before we could enjoy our meal omgggg.

Plenty of osyters :O

Look at that ughhh. Obviously we didn't order this lol. The label says 'sand worm' x.x

Interesting looking prawns that seemed like a mix of prawn and crayfish!

Abaloneeee

The now cooked (and eaten) osyters :p

Scallops

The last photo I have on food - Shark's fin noodles.

I know I know, the whole thing about how cruel sharks are treated just for their fins. I didn't order a portion of it myself (my cousin didn't either), but I couldn't stop anyone else from ordering. I still stole a little of it from my mum though LOL. Well, that didn't incur an additional fin right, it just meant that my mum had a little less to eat hahaha. Am I being hypocritical? Whatever... it didn't have any effect on the total amount of shark's fin that was eaten.

There weren't many places to sight-see in Macau. This was a temple that most tourists wouldn't visit, because it's not meant to be a tourist attraction, so the people there kinda didn't expect us there hahaha oh wells. My bad I was the one who found this place online. Nonetheless it was a really serene place.

Shopping street at Taipa Island.

Portuguese architecture

Night scenery

A peaceful morning :)

Statue of Guan Yin

 Hotel-hopping

Most atas toilet ever LOL

My failed attempt at a pretty photo :( Camera couldn't focus on our faces...

One of the few photos with just my parents and I :)

Group photo! Pardon my hair lol.

Hehehehehehe last two photos are for fun. Not like they will know about it :D

Ahh... I love indie music 😊

The two things that company me while I'm studying at home - music and Ruby. Hahaha although I do feel like I'm accompanying Ruby more than she is accompanying me. And I'm becoming a regular customer of Subway. I have been having it for lunch for 4 out of 5 days lol simply because it's the only reasonable food place near my house :/

[ENG] Jang Kiha and The Faces - Some Kind of Relationship in Between

I first watched this MV (?) a few years back and up till now it's still one of the most unforgettable MVs I've ever watched hahaha. This band is quite an interesting band. Their songs are rather peculiar LOL but yeah it's cool to have a band that's so unique in it's own way!

어반자카파(Urban Zakapa) - 널 사랑하지 않아(I Don't Love You)

UZ is always good, love their emotional vocals!



Saw a comment on YT with regards to the male lead in this MV, which said that the male lead's character here is trash, but he's a "good-looking trash" LOL. P.s. he really is good-looking :P

My Baby

HAHA just kidding she's clearly not mine! She's my cousin's newborn baby, just a week old! ^^ Baby Avery hehe.

Thank you XM for the catch up today. Really made my recently dull life much better :) Who you hang out with really matters a lot huh...

Glad to hear about your visions for the future, hope everything goes according to your wishes, keep fighting on! And I hope all goes well with ;) Hehehehe.

Pft I guess some things just never change huh... ^^;

Mayday五月天【星空】MV官方完整版-電影「星空」主題曲

Quite a bit of thoughts in my head now, but I can't seem to put them into words. But it's nothing to do with my personal issues. Think I'm almost over that stage hurray. Too many other things worth investing my energy on.

So many things I have in mind to start on next semester, which is my industrial attachment semester. But I think I'm having the wrong perception that I will have more free time on my hands haha. Well, considering how I wouldn't have to work on assignments over the weekends (besides the reports we have to submit periodically), I should have more spare time right :P

Only if I had limitless resources and time...

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Don't criticize yourself please... Don't let the darkness engulf you.

Beautiful day

Such a beautiful weather today, it's overflowing with tranquility ^^

The breeze of the wind seems to carry all my frustrations away. If only every other day is like this.

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On a side note, my parents are back!! This means no longer having to travel to school early in the morning on my own and standing throughout the train ride haha. Besides that, my parents seem to have enjoyed their trip a lot, which makes me feel very happy. It's kinda like a projection into the future, where I hope they'll be able to finally do the things they enjoy and take a proper break for good. Just picturing it makes my heart full. :)

Keep on dreaming, boy
Keep on dreaming, boy
Someday you’ll be fine
Someday you will shine
Someday you’ll be loved
Someday you will smile
Without those tears

NELL - Vain hope

Ooh I kinda like their new sound ^^ They are really such an amazing band.

Two immiscible liquids

If you find yourself having to try so hard to please someone, that person probably isn't worth the effort. Don't let your life be defined by others. Just be yourself.
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Recess week was the previous week and week 7 was just over. These two weeks were filled by studying for midterms and interviews for IA. While interviews have always been a stressful thing for me, I feel much less nervous this time round, probably because I did the necessary preparations. The second half of the semester will be much more hectic, with all the project deadlines and catching up on lectures.

But more than stress from school, I'm so darn sick of all these interpersonal things. Now I don't feel like explaining myself anymore. Just let it be. Not like it's going to make a difference even if I explain huh.

Many people make the mistake of saying how they understand what the other party feels. But no, don't say you understand if you don't actually internalize it. Don't say it for the sake of sounding like you empathise and then simply brush it off. Things will just keep going in circles.
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Goodnight world. Here's to deeper eyebags that reach towards the abyss of the Earth.

Like a child

...

It's so scary how quickly old people can age once there's some health complication. Feeling damn guilty for not arranging to meet up during recess week... :'(

李佩玲《Fight Song》

Yayayayay ^^ Good that she chose a more upbeat song this time round, something different from the two songs she previously sang. Doubt she'll be able to reach top 4 though, unless she's able to showcase something that's unexpected from her, but I still really love her voice!

李佩玲《不要对他说》

Her voice is so clear!! Love her high notes :)

Btw, she's from Malaysia and was adopted by a Chinese couple when she was young. Touching story. Her mum is so supportive of her too :')

There a mess of black inside me. I imagine it to be like the dust bunny from Totoro. Sometimes it gets  a little too overwhelming and I don't feel good. No reason in particular. It's just there. I wish I could be back to the old days.

I think my point was conveyed across, but whether it was accepted, I don't know.

I think I need a day off. Fully.

It's backkkk. And it seems like it's here to stay for a while...

Have been feeling out of sorts the past week or so, like I'm not entirely there and my head is foggy and stuff. It's the same feeling I had back in Sec 4 days sigh. My senses seem to be less sensitive especially my sense of touch and my arms feel weak. I couldn't even close my pen cap properly today lol. And it doesn't seem to be going away even with sleep.

I really hate this feeling cuz it just makes me feel more lethargic than I already am and simply feel weak. Shall go for a run tomorrow morning and see if it will make me feel better.

I tried googling for these symptoms and the closest I could get was something called Depersonalization disorder. But the symptoms that were described seemed a little more serious than what I experience so idk.

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If you don't wish to do some things, but by not doing so it kinda makes you selfish and unkind, how do you strike that balance between the two? So damn conflicted and stifling. If only I could just run away from it in the mean time but no, I'm not allowed to.

There are days when I get reminded of the people who I will be willing to do anything for....and today is such day.

Down and down down down down down

This girl is cool! How does she sing such high notes so effortlessly omg. The song is nice too. It's by a chinese band called 逃跑计划 and apparently their songs sound quite western. I saw some comments on YT about how their songs sound very similar to Coldplay haha hmmm China copying once again? :P Nonetheless a nice song is still a nice song.

Maybe this was a huge mistake right from the start. FREAKING HELL. I hate this. I'm a horrible person. Terrible at making the correct decisions. DAMN IT.

It's another one of those nights where I can feel the darkness and negativity seeping out. Always full of self-doubt. It's time to chase them back into the corners of my mind and heart once again and fight them off in my sleep!

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Maintaining connection with people consistently is just so darn tiring. But it feels like once you don't stay connected, things progress too fast and poof! You reaalise you are unable to relate.

Speaking of which, I realised that my introvertedness reaches a high when too many people I know, but whom I am not close to, are present. That day when my relatives came over on National Day for a gathering, I really just didn't feel like catching up with any of them at all and I just sat at a side playing with Ruby. It was just way too noisy and crowded for my liking ugh. And interestingly, I had rather talked to my aunt or uncle than my cousins who are of closer age to me. Idk, maybe it's just cuz we are not close.

There's so much I want to say, but it's not the time to say. I know the importance of talking things through, but I don't know how to put it across.

There's a reason for why I'm behaving the way I am.

Fuck it. Let me just stay in Korea forever. (But I miss my family...)

Is this the cause of the pulsating pain in my head?

“I have all the characteristics of a human being: blood, flesh, skin, hair; but not a single, clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside of me, and I don’t know why. My nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days. I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip."

Just a quote from American Psycho because I was just talking to Michelle about it earlier this evening. Although the show is super gruesome and psychotic (well, yeah, as you could have guessed from its title), it's still a really good movie. It kinda brings you into the life of a psychotic killer; the thoughts inside their minds, the difficulties they face to fit into society and possibly the misery that they go through.

Keira Knightley - A Step You Can't Take Back

I think the soundtracks of this movie are really nice! Don't remember watching this movie before so I will probably watch this some time soon! :)

Radiohead - Fake Plastic Trees

Radiohead - High & Dry

Ah I'm suddenly missing my family and Ruby :( It seems like I'll be absent for quite a few important things like my dad's birthday (today 13 July) and my sis's commencement. Sigh.

DAYBREAK(데이브레이크) - 'WITH' Official M/V

Keira Knightley - Lost Stars

Younha performed this song during the concert! :)

To the very special singer in my life

I can't believe I attended Younha's concert just this evening! It's like a dream come true, really.

Since I started getting mesmerised by her vocals and musical talents way back in 2008, I have always wanted to attend her concert or at least get to watch her perform live. But I knew it would be difficult for that to happen because she's not famous enough to perform in Singapore and even if she has a performance in Korea, I would have to fly over and getting the ticket is another issue. This is why I am really really so grateful to Gauri's friend, Jin Ju for doing me such a big favour and getting the tickets for me, even though we had not even met before! Of course thanks to Gauri too for being the middleman :P <3 I'm also really fortunate that she happens to hold a concert in the same month as when I'm at Korea for summer school! This must be fate ;)

Mmm, there's one thing I'm sad about though, which is that it seems as though Younha's vocals have changed quite a bit? Probably because of some vocal chord issue she had earlier this year... Now it sounds thinner, more nasal and less clear than before :( It's very obvious especially when she's singing slow songs. I really miss her old vocals but this doesn't mean I will stop supporting her. I think she's the only singer who I will continue loving for my entire life hahaha. Her songs have played a large part in my life and probably have had quite an influence on my current music taste. That being said, I think she still sounds great when singing fast/high songs! Oh and I think she's also quite disappointed with her singing because she did mention during the concert (if I didn't misunderstand it) that she felt she's not performing well :( But naturally the fans all gave her encouragement!

Oh and just a highlight of the concert... A few years back she performed on a live broadcast and during the climax of the song, her belt came off LOL and it was just awkwardly dangling on her dress while she continued singing. During an interview, she mentioned that the belt came off as it was too tight and that it was her manager who told her to wear it tightly because it'd make her look better. So during the concert today, they reenacted the conversation between her and her manager, followed by a reenactment of the performance. Hahahaha yup so the belt fell off during her performance (on purpose) :P Below is the video of her belt coming off during the live broadcast 3 years ago (happens at around 2:50)

If I could just run off to a solo expedition.

No commitments.

No communications.

Just doing the things I want to.

Having absolute freedom without anything holding me back.

Virgin trip to JB taking the public transport today! Thanks to Zexin the JB pro :P





The neoprints were hilarious omg hahahaha. Fun day out with the girls :)

That's all I want to say. It'll make one's life much easier.

But I'm still trying to work on it too.

https://youtu.be/czChvbmNfvw

A few days ago xiaomin's friend whatsapped me to help out for a cover of this song. But I have yet to start coming up with my parts when we are supposed to do the recording next Tues LOL. So I'm listening to it now before Chem E starts so that I can start thinking about it first! It seems like the more problematic part will be at the start where there isn't much instrumentals? Will have to think of something for that!

Btw the song is quite nice! Quite similar to my own music preference! :)

'Twas a good day

The most precious thing on earth is a smile so genuinely innocent that makes you want to preserve and protect it.

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OMG seems like my wishful thinking wasn't that wishful afterall, since my favourite singer will be holding a concert in Korea when I'm there for summer school!!!! :D You don't know how ecstatic I am hahahaha. Gonna ask Gauri's friend to help purchase tix for me!

My pretty feet

Cannes Lion Award-Winning "Three Little Pigs advert"

Vodka Rain - Dreamlike

Just 3 more days and exams will finally be officially over! Then it's time to pack the things in my room and move to the new shelter. Then it's unpacking (oh god just thinking about it feels so tiring :/) and finding a job to save up for KOREA. Woots looking forward to it. Gonna be a hectic one month of summer school with classes from 9am-7pm 4 days a week, it's really like a cram school LOL. But travelling before school starts and during the weekends yayz.

Sighs somehow I really don't feel like replying anyone on whatsapp/tele these days, so I apologise for the very late/slow responses. I have the urge to climb back into my turtle shell again haha.
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Sometimes, you really have to ask yourself if you ever did put in your fair share of effort, before you start yapping about others.

I feel like there is never enough time to spend with all of your loved ones. It's always tough choosing who to spend time with when you can never spend too much time with people dear to you.

Idk, I have a feeling (not entirely baseless, but I'm gonna leave that out) that my parents will be ageing rapidly in the next few years and just the thought of anything happening to them really scares me. What I'm taking for granted right now could well be gone any time soon.

Today I also realised that in November this year, Ruby is done with at least 1/3 of her life, assuming she lives up to around 12 years old. That means that in relative terms, she has already lived a larger part of her life than I have lived mine. Ok, it may not be that surprising since dogs have shorter lifespan, but it just reminded me that we don't really have a lot of time with her.

I know I sound kinda paranoid here lol, no idea why also, but yaaaaaa. Just random thoughts that pop out while I'm trying to study for my last paper on Wednesday LOL.

10cm - October Rain

Beautiful song :')

Ah shit. Did I make another mistake. I didn't plan to talk it about this today....

I'm sorry man. I'm also being selfish here I guess.

SALTNPAPER (솔튼페이퍼) - 모자 (Hats)

Found another nice indie band ^^ This is so my type of music haha

I was talking to Gauri a few days ago about some things and I was kinda taken aback by the word that I had used. Was that how I actually felt without myself realising? I rely on intuition quite often I guess. Just that takes me some time to decipher what I'm feeling.

ANYWAYS. It's the last week of school omg. So many things due on Friday :O Only one more week to study before the first paper on the 23rd omgggggg. Im so dead x.x I'm not even kidding.

Jiayou everyone! Legggooooooo

You know what's more demoralizing than not knowing how to do your tutorials or even not doing well for a test?

It's when you feel like you can't even contribute much for a project.

Not that I want to slack, I actually spent hours working on modeling that question, but it still turned out with tons of mistakes lol. Even during discussions, I don't even know what to comment hah.

What on earth am I doing here man seriously. But where else do I belong? Can I not get a degree ugh.

I haven't really been blogging much recently because of so many things happening :O

I'm currently feeling rather overwhelmed by the amount of things that are gonna soon be due (assignments and projects) plus quizzes in two week's time OMG I'm gonna dieeeee. I've been lagging behind for tutorials since mid-terms but what's new this seems to always happen for the semesters -.- Each week has just been catching up with work, attempting to do tutorials but it's almost always never successful, spending time with people, settling summer school stuff (which I'm so looking forward to!) and omg lab reportssss.

I have to confess that I've not been able to cross off all the to-dos in my planner.... :/

That being said, this semester has also been much more happening than the previous semester haha. I have been meeting with friends more regularly (especially dhs peeps) and going out more frequent. Maybe that's why I'm lagging behind so terribly LOL. But yea time has been well-spent with the right people! :) Life is so much better this way haha..............before I die during finals :P

I'm kinda amazed at how things turned out/are turning out. It's a foreign experience to me and tbh it feels kinda scary to really open up yourself to someone, but it's nice having someone to depend on! :P

Alma

Holy shit this is so creepy :O

Just within these two days I was reminded twice that there's always a back story to everyone. So don't be too early to judge.

A quote from one of my favourite books (that we were made to read in Dunman haha):
"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view — until you climb into his skin and walk around in it."

Side note: Harper Lee passed away just last week I think :( RIP.

End of a chapter

Wow. I didn't think it would come across as such a huge relief.

That's why I said it's more of a positive thing than negative, so don't worry bro.

Thanks once again.

Even if what I'm doing doesn't make much of a difference, it doesn't matter because this is what I sincerely want to do.

Maybe sometimes we're not meant to be a hero, but a silent guardian.

Wow I'm applying what I learnt from watching my GEK lecture video this morning hahaha. A quote from Batman:

"He's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now. So we'll hunt him. Because he can take it. Because he's not our hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector. A dark knight."

I don't get why people who decide to attend an industry lecture, knowing very well that it is an uncompulsory lecture and that the contents covered will not be tested, only to end up their own work right in front of the guest speaker. If that's the case, I'd rather them not sit in at all. If you attend the lecture to make the lecture hall less empty, please don't do work when you're sitting somewhere very visible to the speaker, otherwise what you're doing is just gonna have the opposite effect. Where's the basic respect? Can you put yourself into the speaker's shoes? I'd feel demoralised presenting to 90 souls but only 5 humans. I probably would have just skimmed through the entire lecture but the guy had actually went through it in such detail and took 1hr 50mins. (Although I did hope that he would have shortened it...) What's bad was that most people didn't even try listening; they went there with the sole motive of doing work. Kudos to our generation.

Fuck. I'm feeling so much like a hypocrite. How do I handle things nicely without being a hypocrite... Easiest way would be to just bluntly put things across but I don't want to make things ugly and I don't think I'll be able to make myself say it. Things would be so much simpler if.

Through these it also shows something. It is so different from my style of doing things.

Maybe my new year resolution was too difficult a goal for me to handle...

Confused about things now.

This semester thus far has been rather filled up with building and maintaining relationships. I guess it's good in a way because this is one of my resolutions this year, basically to be a better friend, and it's fun interacting with people I like.

But some things can still be difficult to comprehend especially when I don't really understand certain emotions that I feel at times. Sometimes I don't know if I'm really ignorant of it or I subconsciously choose not to know...

Anyway, sent Zi Quan off at the airport just now. Second person in the group to fly off for overseas studies. Well I guess absence will make the heart fonder. That's why we learn to better appreciate the time we have with our friends while they are still near us. It's really heartening to see peers showing their affection for one another more openly :) It may not be in the form of words or actions, but just simply dedicating some time to them more than adequately shows that you care about them.

Her Morning Elegance - Oren Lavie

Another music video from my GEK tutorial prep! Nice music video and indie song ^^

New wallpaper for my phone. This is one of my favourite breed of dog, Samoyed ^^ I realise that I have a huge inclination towards animals that are pure white in colour haha! I really like such pictures that give off a feeling of tranquility :)

#randomnessat2am hahaha

Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit

Had to watch this MV as part of the tutorial preparation for my Narrative module. Basically we had to analyse the story and how the story is being presented to the viewer. This was one out of the three videos we had to analyse (the other two being Taylor Swift's "Bad Blood" and Coldplay's "The Scientist") and since I find it rather intriguing, I'm going to share more about it here!

When I played the video for the first time, I was like wtf is this shit LOL. I had to replay it a few more times before I could identify a few key points.

Maybe you'd want to try watching the video first (for those who have not already watched this before, like me hahaha) and try to make sense out of it. I shall write out what we discussed during the tutorial session below.



From the beginning, we pretty much know that this takes place at an Asian country (Japan most probably) from the tape used to cordon the area, then we see a man on the top of a car and the recurring theme of smoke brings us to the first verse of the song.

We see three different groups of people - the shag-face guy with a suitcase, the girl who writes 'I'm nothing' and a guy who has tomatoes thrown at him by a woman. At this point in time when I first watched the video, nothing made sense to me at all. I had no single idea what was going on hahaha.

Moving on to the second verse of the song, here is when we get greater insight (well, except the girl I guess, I really couldn't figure out that part) into what the whole video is about. This part is also shown in reverse chronological order. These are what we concluded from the tutorial discussions:

- The girl suffers from low self-esteem, leading her to self-harm. I suggested that she is obsessed with her appearance (because there is a mirror there) and my tutor said that that is a legit point also.
- The shag guy is a drug user, the briefcase contains the drugs and the green thingy is a needle I suppose.
- (This was the most obvious one imo) The guy who is thrown tomatoes at was caught by his pregnant wife on his infidelity.
- Overall, the video can be interpreted as having different plot lines (the three groups of characters who probably do not know each other exists) in one story world.
- I interpret the lead singer jumping off the building as possibly any person in society who is faced with the same situations as the three groups of characters we were earlier introduced to.

We also discussed about the beginning and endings and how MVs can both provide greater clarity and delimit the possible interpretations of a song, but nah I'm going to leave those out haha and just focus on the plot.

These may come across as obvious to some haha but at the end of the tutorial I was just wow-ed by how artistic this MV actually is, contrary to my initial belief.

Adam Lambert - Evil In The Night

Not the usual type of song I will put into my iPod, but it's still catchy ;)

Please let there be nothing wrong. Please.

Otherwise I wouldn't know how to deal with it.

Year 9s?!

I'm feeling so happy tonight ^^ MY HEART IS BURSTING WITH HAPPINESS I SWEAR.

I don't know if it's because I went back to Dunman today haha. Helped out for the year 3 orientation as a station master, was at the same station together with Chester, Leng Yuk and Si Zheng and a year 3 girl called Hui Ling who's part of the orientation committee. Had fun catching up with them especially when talking about how 4G had disappointed so many of our teachers like Ms Soh and Qiu laoshi hahaha. Those were really epic XD Talked a little to Hui Ling and it was surprisingly easy to talk to her despite us being 6 years apart! Maybe she's just more matured for her age.

And omg the sudden realisation that we were year 9s was shocking... We wouldn't even had met the year 3s before because they entered the year after we graduated :O

Nonetheless it felt really awesome being back in Dunman haha! Everything was just so nostalgic. I shouldn't have taken my days at dhs for granted :/  Even walking down the road to school felt so nostalgic so I was walking rather slowly hahaha. I was also reminded of the two or three times I bumped into someone when I walked out into the street from home and how that made my day HAHAHAHAHA. ;) ;)

Ahhh I really miss spending days with Dunmanians... T-T

Oh boy. I just realised that I shouldn't have started the year with my previous post haha. But wellz I have never really seen the point of making a big hooha over the new year since time is continuous; the start of a new year doesn't signify anything special. You don't have to wait till the new year to start making changes/resolutions, that's just an excuse.

Still, I guess I got excited by the fireworks from the new year coundown that I started spamming people with new year greetings XD

ANYWAYS, to the main point.... (This took me 5 seconds to recall LOL) This semester I've decided to make some changes to my activities out of school. For one, I decided to reduce my partipation in cdac because I don't really think it has been effective and, to my second point, I want to do something new and different. Ah but it turns out that it's also not something very new haha. Feeling excited to be playing once again hehe I hope it turns out well! I hope that doing something I like can help to straighten my thoughts out a little and keep my mind sane during the semester. I have so many things I want to do but I can only limit myself to one thing per school term because I really need to buck up in my studies :/

For now, it's time to treasure the last week of the holidays before another horrifying semester!

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It's really very easy to simply blame someone for their shortcomings and neglect the mistakes that you yourself have made.

I'm so damn confused about human relationships ugh.