It's amazing how the confidence I took the past week to build up could come collapsing so easily, all because of a mere call from a woman that I just could not seem to communicate with. (She just didn't get what I was telling her?! She even requested for another officer to speak to her ok. And she claimed that she knew better than I did. Then you call for what?!) Or perhaps it was all a farce to begin with. But I just have to get over it. She's just one out of a hundred. Then again, this reminds me of how once someone who has been doing good deeds does something bad, he becomes a bad person regardless of his previous deeds. That's kinda how I feel right now. Even though I feel that I did quite okay for the first week, this single incident was more than sufficient for me to feel that I'm doing badly. Yes I'm aware of this but I still can't help but to feel this way. Hope a good night's sleep will get rid of this feeling.

Finally got to meet the peeps today and celebrated zq's (overdue) birthday! We didn't have any plan on what to eat and what to do, but it turned out okay somehow. Birthday cake was brought out quite awkwardly since zq happened to turn around haha but it was already kinda obvious in the first case so it didn't really matter. Afterwards went to a cafe and got drinks and just chilled out. Really enjoyed today's session especially with the interesting army talks. I may not have talked much but I was actively listening okay. Honestly, I was kinda reluctant to leave. I wanted to hang out longer, but everyone had their own stuff on and I needed to be back to pack my stuff. If time permitted I would have liked to just stay longer, even if we ran out of topics to talk about. It all just felt so comfortable :)

Before that, went for a short jog with kaining in the morning! We ended up talking more than we ran though hahaha. Finally got to catch up after more than a month since the last time we met up! Afterwards took a bath at her house and her mum made me a cup of milo too hehe thanks auntie!

Today had been one of the best day in a long time~ It got me recharged for the upcoming week of work! And I'm looking forward to the Sat session since we're gonna play floorball and basketball (though I can't really play haha)!

In a good mood now~ ^^

Actually my job is quite fun. It's basically like trouble-shooting but not in the technical way and helping people to find the answers that they want. The bad part is when you have to keep putting them on hold for such a long period of time, even when their question was a relatively simple one. Worse is if you provide them an incorrect answer but you only realise it some time later and you can't call them back. Guilt guilt. Anw, the main point I wanted to say was, I have always liked trouble-shooting since young haha so yeah I guess I kinda enjoy it~ They say the peak period is late March and early April, but yesterday I already had non-stop incoming calls so I don't want to imagine how it will be like then... it's like once I release the phone call, another one comes in. But it's fine, it saves my PI hahaha. Did I mention before? WE HAVE A FREAKING PI THAT INCREASES EACH WEEK.

It seems like everyone is facing some kind of trouble or stress at work recently. Have strength guys! Jiayou~

Ahhhhh tmr's gonna be the first day I'll be manning the line T.T freaking out like mad I tell you. We did try a few calls today during our live buddy session, where we were split into smaller groups and had to answer a call from a REAL taxpayer (even though I initially thought they simply got some of their colleagues to pretend and call in). But the thing is, there was a supervisor right beside us. And we relied A LOT on her lol she was like our live encyclopedia. It's mad la omg so many things to look out for and if you give the wrong advice then gg. Siao liao siao liao. Tmr onwards I'll be ALL ON MY OWN. Still can ask supervisor la, but I foresee there will be a long queue. Siao liao. Hope everything goes well tmr! ><

I contemplated whether or not to share this song, because it contains sexual themes which caused the song to be banned from public broadcast in SK. But ignoring that, I feel that this song was beautifully written and composed. The lyrics make up a mini drama where there's development within that short period of 4 minutes plus and the jazzy feel of the song just matches the overall story so well. Oh yes, and that last three notes <3 I like weird endings like this haha.

Ahh I think I'm going back to k-indie :) I need more peace in my life lo

Damn it I've been getting too easily irritated recently. Idk what's wrong with me -.- UGH I know I shouldn't act like such a brat but I just cannot control myself. Worse thing is there is no reason for me to be acting this way. Nothing at all. What the hell is wrong with me

I really really hate it if people look for me just because they need a favour or some benefits. I like helping people (seriously, I'm not being sarcastic) but don't take it for granted. It's a terrible feeling.

It seems like within this short period of a few months, many things have changed. So many new environments, people, things and less interaction with the people I used to see around everyday; I no longer know what's what and who's who. It could be due to change, or maybe the things I thought I knew about in the past were simply incorrect.

Anyway, today's my third day at my new job, and I've gotta say that I am so do not like it as of now. The past few days were training, which will continue on till next thurs (!!!), that were so damn boring and dry thanks to all the technical terms and what not. Basically had lectures throughout the day. Without much hands-on, I almost fell asleep multiple times ok. Either that or my mind simply drifted away. And I think the trainer realised that lol.

I'm quite certain that I would not want to take up Accounting -.- Seriously it's so bad that I even had thoughts of just failing the quizzes and just find another job instead. Hope it would not be as bad when we actually get to be on the line.....

Guess what? I'm starting on Galileo 2! HAHAHA. I have a soft spot for mystery/detective shows ;) Ah but too bad they changed the female protagonist...

Ah gosh. I suddenly feel a wave (?) of boredom when I realise I still have two days of break, without having any plans for either days. At times like this in the past, I would have gladly just stayed at home to use the computer, probably to watch some drama or anime. But nah...now these don't seem to appeal to me. I don't even know what I want to do during my free time. Am I such a boring person? It's so bad that I'm looking forward to starting work at my new workplace on Tues.

ANYONE FREE ON MONDAY TO CHILL OUT?

...is what I want to ask, but I always feel that most people are too busy with their own lives. So it's fine. I can find something to do by myself. (I'm not being sarcastic btw.) Sorry if I'm sounding like some attention-seeking kiddo. I don't mean to, I'm just expressing my thoughts.

Speaking of attention-seeking, today Ruby must have been super happy to have so many people playing with her haha. We brought her to my grandma's house (to my aunt's dismay) since my grandma seems to quite like her. My grandma even gave her two golf balls to play! She kept playing non-stop, as long as someone was willing to play along with her hahaha. When she reached home, she collapsed like a dead dog LOL. Oh and she finally got to relieve herself. I must say she was quite disciplined for not causing any trouble despite being at my grandma's house for an entire day :)

Btw guys, I will be moving to Pasir Panjang on 1st March (still on rental). It's somewhere near NUS, which is good for my mum and my sis. So I suppose I'll likely enter nus too :p

When a soulmate leaves, a part of your soul follows them

As usual, my first day of cny was rather boring since my paternal grandparents have passed away and my uncles and aunties don't seem to intend visiting my dad even though he's the oldest sibling. So we ended up going to jem, but failed to catch a movie, then going to robinsons to buy mattress for when we move out lol, followed by a terrible and expensive kebab meal.

Anyway, sorry for ruining the festive mood, but I just have to mention about this uncle (my dad's eldest uncle) we visited. The last time we visited him was 2 years ago. I still rmb then there were quite a few people who happened to be visiting him too, so it was quite bustling. I still clearly rmb how amazed we were at the auntie, who was I think close to 90, but was still super cheerful and spoke with enthusiasm. But later that year we found out that she had passed away not long after cny. Cause of death? My dad's not too sure but he said she had a stomachache and got sent to the hospital and passed away. No one dared to ask the uncle for the details of course but in short it was an unexpected death.

Right before we left, he mentioned something briefly about his wife (I couldn't unds cuz he spoke in teochew), and had teared up. It was really sad because you could really tell how upset he still is even after 2 years. Now that she's gone, the house had turned much more quiet, especially when she was one who talked a lot. And this year, most of his children didn't seem like they would be visiting him, my parents guessed it was probably because they had an argument or sth with the brother who was staying in that home. That doesn't give them the excuse of not visiting, but that's not the main point here. So that just made the house seem even more empty and quiet and the uncle even more lonely. Plus his legs were swollen from water retention, but he doesn't know why. I don't think he went for a proper check up.. It's really quite sad la, cuz I don't think he really wants to live on either. He said that nowadays the only things he do are to eat, sleep and watch tv.

Ok enough of the sadness. Enjoy your cny and all the good food! Go on a diet only after cny hahaha.