It's another one of those nights where I can feel the darkness and negativity seeping out. Always full of self-doubt. It's time to chase them back into the corners of my mind and heart once again and fight them off in my sleep!

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Maintaining connection with people consistently is just so darn tiring. But it feels like once you don't stay connected, things progress too fast and poof! You reaalise you are unable to relate.

Speaking of which, I realised that my introvertedness reaches a high when too many people I know, but whom I am not close to, are present. That day when my relatives came over on National Day for a gathering, I really just didn't feel like catching up with any of them at all and I just sat at a side playing with Ruby. It was just way too noisy and crowded for my liking ugh. And interestingly, I had rather talked to my aunt or uncle than my cousins who are of closer age to me. Idk, maybe it's just cuz we are not close.