A slightly different boxing day

Yesterday my mum, sis and I (my dad had work) helped out as a volunteer for an outing that my mum's friend had planned. We brought 20 Thye Hua Kwan residents out to Botanic Gardens and gbtb.

It's our second time meeting the residents, the first time was about two or three years back, and because there were many new residents, I only recognised a few of them. But I'm glad that I felt more comfortable interacting with them this time round. Previously, I guess I didn't really know how to talk to them? Especially since most of them are older than me, yet we're supposed to treat them like kids or someone of the same age. But through yesterday's outing, I realised that the way they behave  (for most of them at least) was really just like how another other kid would have behaved. I just had to have an open heart, which I think I did achieve because I felt very happy interacting with them. I could feel my heart smiling... Hahaha okay I'm being dramatic, but I really did feel something in my heart.

It was a tiring day, but definitely a day well spent.

I really respect this friend of my mum. The entire outing had been planned and sponsored by her family and her and they have been doing such things for many years. And no, she's not a housewife who has a lot of spare time on her hands. She conducts IT courses and has to take care of her husband who was diagnosed with an illness some time back. But she still makes time to plan and coordinate activities for the less fortunate. You know how people say that you can either 出力 to help someone and for the rich but busy people they can 出钱? It's easy to just stick to the latter if you're rich, but she's doing both of it. If this doesn't deserve respect that I don't know what does.

Merry Xmas!

....but nothing's all that merry.

Everything hasn't been going well. Not at all.

Tell me something that I'm doing well in. I can't think of any.

Full of negative thoughts these few days, thoughts that I have been trying to suppress back into my mind, but it seems that it's not helping and it probably is making it even worse.

Am I even in the right place? It's not like I don't put in the effort. Sure, I don't deserve an A but not these grades either.

It doesn't even help that my mum doesn't seem to find it an issue. When I told her my results, she simply said, "So, what to do? Work harder next time." Wtf. I mean she has never scolded me for bad grades (except once in P5 I think) and for that I'm thankful and I'm not faulting her for what she said, it's just that do I continue on doing what I've been doing despite it obviously not working out? Sometimes working hard is not everything. Especially not if it's for something that I do not entirely like and cannot imagine myself doing for the next couple of years. Y'know. But what else can I do.

Ahh fuck this shit man.

Santa, this is the first time I'm requesting for a Christmas gift. A gift that can enlighten me. Please. Thank you. See you tonight.

Merry Christmas pepo!

End of Y2S1. How much have I grown? 0cm. I'm still 163cm.

I guess it's time for a post to sum up Y2S1.

The past semester had been...full of self-doubt and attempts to figure out what it is that I really want to do in this life. The more core modules I study, the less I can imagine myself doing what I am doing right now for the next few years when I start working. Maybe it's because I don't exactly know how the workplace is like and the exact requirements of the job scope.

But anyway, I have been torn between two possible pathways - one which is contained within my heart, while the other is in my head. At times like these, I usually follow my heart, but in this case there are a few things to consider and they not only involve myself. When I ask myself what I would want to do if I were to only have a few days to live (yes, drama much, but well, because of the few people I have heard who recently found out that they have stage four cancer, anything is possible man you never know), clearly I will follow my heart. So, is that the answer?

Y'know, sometimes I don't know if those supposedly 'motivational' quotes you see on social media are really motivational in nature. I feel like they often simply cause confusion and unrealistic thinking. (That's my practical side showing up...) I guess life isn't that simple huh, it's not all just about practicality. Greedy people like me want more. I want to achieve my own definition of success. I want more to life. Hah. But what more should I expect if I'm not even able to support myself yet. I could take it one step at a time, but no, I'm greedy; I want to achieve them all together. Thanks man, motivational quotes :/

I'll leave this here for now, since I've not found an answer yet. I'm hoping to get an answer by the end of this holidays.

Okay, now about the modules I took this semester.

Core modules first, well since they are....core modules. Thermo and fluid mech were horrendous LOL. I'm seriously just hoping for the best. I was glad though that some things that we learnt were kinda more relatable to in real life, like learning about engines and turbines, and about boundary layers (tbh I was quite intrigued by the video Prof Chen showed us haha I didn't know boundary layers existed :x). For the first half of the semester, thermo was more manageable than fluid mech but when the prof changed to dear Kyle Phua in the second half, thermo became bad, bad and just BAD. I can't fully blame him because he's a new prof so his notes are unstructured and he gives unclear explanation, but it's just very sian :( Oh wellz MOVING ON.........

.....to the two best modules for this sem ^^ Social work and science of music~ Both are electives haha. I'm kinda glad that I didn't manage to take the Psych module haha because otherwise I would not have taken social work. I feel that many things I learnt in social work can be applied in my life even if I am not a social worker. Y'know, when I tell people that I'm taking either social work or science of music, I really hate it when some people think I'm taking them because they are supposedly easy modules. Dude. I took them out of interest all right. Please do not take social work if you only want to score an A. There's a reason why it's called social work. People out there who require help don't care if you can study and score well, they just need someone who sincerely want to help them. (Oh but anyway, I don't think it will be easy for one to do well if one is not interested in the subject at all, the prof can probably tell from your writings lol.) For SOM, I know many people take the module with the motive of scoring an easy A, and yes I don't deny that it is an easy module especially if you have musical background and exams are a breeze if you have the past year papers (many questions are recycled lol just a little different), but there are many interesting things covered during lecture that are not tested. I'm not against people who take modules for an easy A because I understand and would do so also (I must be interested in the module first though), but it's sad that this is the result of our 'education' system. And I realised I didn't talk about the modules hahaha :P

Um the last module I took is accounting, which was just mehhhhhh haha. The first half of it was still okay, but when Ma Guang (yea, Horse Light XD) started going through bonds and whatnot, oh no man nononononono. One of the worst electives to take lol. Super thankful for having Jason in our project group because he's the one who had been pushing us to do work, consulting the tutor and beautifying the report haha. We actually finished it about a week before the deadline and eventually we did well for the project ;)

Lastly, I wanna thank the group of people I had been studying with right before the exams. I couldn't really help you all much because I usually wouldn't know also how to answer LOL. I feel like a burden when I ask questions as usual haiz but yea studying with them really made me feel more motivated to study. Regardless of whether or not I end up going into the chemical engineering field, I'm thankful for being in the same course as so many hardworking, humble and helpful people. I learnt a lot from them, not just academically but also in the way to treat people and your friends.

I think I'm gonna step out of my cave next semester hahaha staying at home so much isn't good I guess hehe :P

Just a dog story

Ruby loves her toys.
When she gets a new toy, she may or may not like it.
If she doesn't like it, she loses interest in it.
But if she likes it, she's all into it.
From then on, her old toys become boring to her and get neglected.
Once in a while she plays with the old toys, but her favourite toy will still be the new toy.

fox capture plan / wonderwall

Heh a cover of Wonderwall :)



P.s. This is Yuxin's theme song to me HAHA.

Fox Capture Plan / Attack on fox

HAH! What did I say about j-drama OST? Hahaha.

Wheehee jazzy jazz jazz ^^



Please don't attack the poor fox :'(

Fox Capture Plan / Butterfly Effect

Yay to more amazing music :)



The song sounds like a soundtrack that can be used in Japanese dramas haha I can just imagine it. Maybe that's why I like it :P

Heyyyy.

I really can't wait for the last paper on Tuesday to be over. Then I can start to seriously think about my life and the direction I should be headed towards.

I need something to work towards to otherwise all that I'm doing right now is just meaningless to me, and when I don't see the point of doing something, why should I do it?

Dude that's not the way to do things..

Where's the basic courtesy?

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First paper in two hours' time! Let's gogogo 

Battle Born - The Killers

Somehow listening to this song always makes me want to fight on :)

May you be in a better world with your God

You had been a really brave and positive person during the last couple of months. Looking back, it probably was a right decision to not let you know about the number of days you had left as estimated by the doctor; turns out that you lived longer than that. Eventually as your condition deteriorated over the weeks, I guess you became aware about the situation even without anyone telling it to you explicitly.

I visited you about 3 or 4 times during this period of time and each time I went, your condition had clearly worsened from the previous visit. The last time I saw you was just 3 days ago. You were unable to speak by then and couldn't even open your eyes probably because of the heavy dosage of Morphine. It was really sad seeing you just lie there, not being able to respond to the people around you (I believe that you were able to hear us talking). I knew I would never be able to hear your voice again. I cannot imagine how I would feel if I was in that position. Frustrated? Useless?

I wanted to talk to you since it was probably the last time I could do so, but as usual I didn't know how to show my affection well, especially since we weren't very close. Still, I really enjoyed talking to you because you gave off a very warm vibe. It almost didn't feel like you were my aunt (my mum's cousin in fact). You were very dedicated in taking care of your mother for many years until she passed away two years ago and that was something I really respected you for. It's a pity you didn't much time to spend more time on yourself, before you were aware of your illness. I remember my mum saying that she asked if you had any dying wishes/things to let go off and what you said was that being unmarried, there weren't many things you had to worry about, but you felt regretful for being unable to spend more time with your sister (who is also unmarried and they took care of their mother together). Even when you were terminally ill, you were considerate and put others before yourself.

Why do many good/nice people usually end up dying early? WHY. This is something I can never understand.

Once again, what is left are just memories. But what the hell are memories? They are just something that you could end up easily losing in the future.

I realised that the thing that I miss most from people that I have lost is their laughter. Whenever I think of them, I recall hearing their laughter; something that is very distinct of each and every person, which makes it all the more precious. (p.s. I really really miss my grandma's cute laughter.)

Hope that you are in a better place right now. RIP.

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Don't worry guys, I'm fine. Just penning down my thoughts over this period of time.

Younha - 널 생각해 (Chinese sub)

Hurhur always loving her voice <3 This song really really suits her voice!
But I find the rap part a little out of place :/

ONE OK ROCK - A Thousand Miles (Cover)

Just look at the size of the crowd! :O

ONE OK ROCK - Last Dance

Is this our Last Dance?
Can we take another chance?
To be,
Alone, together still...
Are we wasting time?
Chasing dreams,
Not yours or mine
Care, for you,
I always will

OMG I just know about an upcoming One Ok Rock performance in Singapore next yr Jan!!! :OOOOO

ANYONE WANTS TO GO WITH ME HEHE. Early bird ticket sales till end of this month at $98. It's at Fort Canning Park.

omgggggggggggggggg

I was scrolling through my mum's fb timeline (ya ya I stalking my mum can haha) and read through some of her friend's comments on our family photos, then I started getting all emotional :P Many of the comments were about how we're a happy family, which made me ponder about it. Sure, social media tends to over-represent the joy in one's life, but such posts also remind us of the bright side of life despite all the adversities we face. I have been taking many things for granted I guess. So when I saw the comments made by my mum's friends, I realised that yeah, I have been very blessed.

I am so so so grateful to my parents for everything thus far. Though we may still have some disputes every now and then, it's precisely because we're family members that's why we can speak freely and quarrel, yet patch up in a short while. Of course, most of the time my parents are the ones giving in oops. When I saw one of the fb photo with only my parents in it (holding hands hehe), it made me tear up, idk why haha. I guess this is another one of those emotional nights ^^; Anyway, over the past weekend my sis was rushing for her project, which she spent days and nights working on, and my parents even ended up helping her with cutting newspapers and sticking them onto the mould. It's at times like this that remind me that they have and will always be there for us, supporting us in whichever means even if it means going out of the way or sacrificing their weekend nap time.

I'm sorry if this post sounds cheesy hahaha I'll probably cringe if I were to read this again next time, but yea it's my feelings for tonight. Once in a while I will feel emotional like this HAHA.

Nell - Star Shell MV

我的肚子在咕噜咕噜叫

As the title says.

HAHA.

Anyway I don't think I've talked about this before: My cousin asked my sis and I a while back to be part of her 姐妹团 for her upcoming wedding in Jan! Hahaha I feel honoured to have been asked by her and I'm starting to get a little excited! ^^ Going to get measurements done this Saturday haha omg I sound so bimbo getting excited this but it's gonna be my first experience (and hopefully many more to come hurhur hints hints my dear friends).

About this cousin of mine, she's my closest cousin despite us being 5 years apart. We used to play a lot together when we were young and she would come to our house to stayover during most of the holidays. She took care of us very well like an older sister and treated us to food and stuff haha. I really really wish her well in her future marriage life, she's one of the people I really treasure. If that Franco (her fiancé) dares to do anything funny, I'll karate chop and kick his tummy and fats >)

I think, bit by bit, we are changing in some ways. These changes may not be obvious and it's too early to determine if it's for the better or worse, but I shall just believe in the former.

I have been pondering over something for the past few weeks (about two months in fact). Again, no one knows whether the result of this decision, if made, would be positive or not. But now's not the time for this haha I'm leaving this till after finals.

1) I guess it's still best to remain distant.

2) I'm seriously having doubts about what I am doing now.

3) I need to do something new soon life is getting boring.

4) I'm going to Hang Zhou this Dec!

5) If this blog can no longer be found any time soon, it just means I changed the url and I'll only be disclosing it to some ppl

雨の香り - Younha

Halfway done with my MIDI composition! ^^

And I've got to say that I'm rather satisfied with what I have as of now hehe. It's about 70%-80% complete I guess? I'm left with most of the rhythms and some details here and there. The song may sound ridiculous to some haha but come on I'm an amateur here XD Super fun haha I spent most of my weekend exploring the software and testing out some sounds.

Once it is there, it is there.

I guess it always will be there.

Oh well. Haha.

I just recorded a few short melodies in my phone for my SOM assignment and I had a realisation that my tunes were heavily influenced by Jay Chou LOL. Somehow or rather the melodies that I came up with sounded similar to those composed by him.... Of course mine can't be compared to his la I'm like level zero while he's alr at a god level hahaha but it sounds similar. Maybe I'm just playing out melodies that I have heard before somewhere and have been tucked into the very corners of my memory XD

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Yes, no matter what happiness and health comes first. So please take care of yourselves people! And of course you too dear Kaining :) Thanks for reminding me that while we may be caught up in our own struggles, we should not forget that people around are probably and most likely facing similar difficulties. Keep a look out for people around you. Jiayou everyone!

You see the 2nd line under 'marks'? Yup that's my score.

Scored my first 0 in uni yayz.

I kinda expected it after the test but it's still so damn demoralizing. At first I thought my marks have yet to be keyed in when I saw the big fat 0 but nah that was the reality LOL.

Really fuck this shit man. The number of hours I spend on fluid tutorials and pyp is so not worth this freaking oval-shaped creature. Maybe I'm not doing it right. I know I can be really unproductive. But I tried. But when the paper came I got too affected again and poof everything went down the drain. This is one of my worst issues that I have yet to learn to overcome.

So now what? I can only push on right. No one to blame except my self. Hope for things to be a little better. At most I retake the module. And retake. And retake. Or switch to another course. Hmmm sounds enticing? But that means extending my undergrad years. Means more money. Means I delay graduation and start work later. Means my parents have to retire later.

..........What exactly is the point that I am trying to drive across?

Wtv man that's all I have got to rant. Live with it. Get over it. Move on. Work harder.

Sorry for the vulgarity yeah.

Ben Folds Five - One Angry Dwarf and Two Hundred Solemn Faces

The piano solo is sick! But I can never get sick of it ;) The first time I heard this song was back in 2008, but until today I'm still amazed at the piano solo.

Kiss.
My.
Aaaasssssss.

HAHAHA.

150920 멜로디 포레스트 캠프 윤하 - 좋아해

Awesome possumz :) Still love her rock performances the most hehe. Lol there's a part where she forgot the lyrics XD

I swear that as the days go by, I'm going to end up with a university degree in cursing and swearing LOL. Every time I do tutorials or revise in particular for CN modules, somehow I will find myself cursing at the paper unknowingly. It's bad because soon it will become a habit and I may just curse out unconsciously during daily conversations which is something I don't wish to happen...

All right, back to cursing..oops I mean studying for 2122! :P

Ugh I'm feeling so uncomfortable over something that I can't properly concentrate on my revision.

Is it right for family members to not tell a sick person how many days they are left with? I feel that the sick person has the right to know, but I also know that it may affect her will. But if it's almost certain that this person wouldn't live any much longer, shouldn't she have the right to know? It is better for her to carry false hope or to face the reality earlier despite how difficult it may be? Otherwise when the day comes and the person suddenly realises it, wouldn't it be too late for him/her to fulfil certain wishes? Even though it's good that she's being very positive about things now, but people around her all know that even the doctors are not going to let her go for treatment because it's already too late, it's just really saddening that she's carrying such false hopes. It just feels wrong.

I DON'T KNOW MAN. WHY IS LIFE SO SCREWED UP.

Dave Brubeck - Take Five

Take 5!!! Reminds me of how we chionged the entire Take Five drama during the sleepover at Changi ^^

Le Grand Tango, by Astor Piazzolla--Adam Liu,cello--David Allen Wehr, piano

This was my favourite piece for the concert I attended on Thursday, for my science of music concert review haha. Awesome shitz :)

Y'know, I really don't agree with this electoral candidate was using emotional appeal to garner support. By emotional appeal here I'm talking about how she made her speech sound so touching, about what the ruling party has done for us over the many years, about how everything they have done is all for us. I am not devaluating their contributions thus far, I acknowlege that it is no simple matter to be able to have developed our country to where we are today. Some comments on fb mentioned things like how touched they were with her speech and how sincere she was. Okay, well done woman, you have secured their votes. Not mine. (Okay, fine! I don't get to vote! And not like she's in my grc.)

It doesn't mean that one should vote for them simply because of what they have done in the past, many years way back. People should be looking at the current state of things and the current candidates. People in the past have left their legacy, but how much of that legacy had been contributed by today's candidates? Aren't they simply trying to feed on the achievements of past leaders? Loyalty is good, but not blind loyalty.

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Anyway, I recently watched a video by Amos Yee, on how the opposition should give their rally speeches (which I feel is applicable to not only the opposition). I was rather impressed tbh. The things that he said may not come across as anything new to most of us, since we have been writing essays in school, but you will realise that neither the ruling party nor the opposition parties are doing it in thieir speeches.

One point he said was to make sure that there is balance in the speech. This is something not new at all right? But do the election candidates do that in their speeches? As far as I know, none or very few of them do. Most of them just provide an extremely imbalanced POV and just attack the opposing party. Amos mentioned that striking this balance should be done from the start. For example, on the ruling party side, they can acknowledge the shortcomings or mistakes that they have made. As for the opposition, they can point out the positive sides of the ruling party and the possible obstacles that they could face if they were to be elected. By acknowledging one's shortcomings right at the beginning, it gives you greater credibility for what you are going to say afterwards, as you would already have portrayed yourself to be a candidate who is not simply speaking to degrade or to overthrow the government.

Sounds simple? But no, politicians do not do that because they are often expected to present a perfect image. Perfect image = more votes. But "image" may not work on everyone today. People are becoming intellectual and more critical. They look for substance behind that presented image. A little scar on that once perfect image in exchange for greater credibility is a cheap price to pay I would say.

I'm not exactly a supporter of Amos, I do think he doesn't know the limits during his whole saga, but I have to say that this guy does have the brains. He is smart, but he's just too extreme. It would have been great if he's less extreme and joined politics. Sometimes we need such "radicals" to really see some changes being made.

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To anyone who is fuming right now or feeling uncomfortable reading this, this is why I don't like to discuss about politics or any controversy with friends. Politics, along with money, is one of the most deadly relationship-breaking tools. I am not joking cuz Singaporeans are still not open-minded enough, as much as we wish that we are. We want to be open-minded, we try to be, but we may end up feeling very affected by differing views.

$40 that says something

Last Friday morning I went downstairs to get breakfast and since I was low on cash, I went to withdraw money. AND I FREAKING FORGOT TO TAKE THE $40 FROM THE ATM MACHINE. I only realised this after about 5-10 minutes and by the time I went back to the atm, the money was gone, as I had expected :(

It just spoiled my day la but who was I to blame anyone, it was entirely a result of my carelessness (probably cuz I was only half awake then...) and I didn't think that the person who took the money could do anything about it to return the money or would bother troubling him/herself and make a report to the bank or something, because I really didn't know how the procedure should be like if something like this happens.

The next day I told my parents about it and they said that I could try making a report to the bank, they would be able to trace it. But I was skeptical about it. I know that atm machines have cameras, but if they managed to capture the person who had taken the money, but if the person did not insert his atm card to withdraw any money (I made an assumption here), then how were they going to identify him? I was just really unsure about whether the bank would even be able to do anything about this, especially when the amount involved isn't exactly that big (relatively of course, $40 is still quite a sum to a student like me lol). Plus, I felt that it wasn't necessary to go through the trouble (for the bank, myself and the person who took the money) when it was entirely my own mistake...So I just treated the $40 as a donation and a price to pay for the lesson learnt.

Then....this afternoon I received an sms from the DBS bank about crediting some claimed amount to my account, to which I was unaware of. I suspected that it was the $40, but I didn't dare to expect anything, so I waited till I got home to check.

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW FORTUNATE I FELT WHEN I SAW $40 BEING CREDITED INTO MY ACCOUNT. Must have been the good karma I have accumulated hahaha just kidding. But yeah I really did not expect to be able to get back this $40.

Thank you so much, whoever you are!! May you be blessed with endless good karma. Really really arigato T.T

Faith in humanity restored!

HI GUYS.

I WILL BE MOVING TO TAMPINES FROM NEXT YEAR ONWARDS.

PERMANENTLY.

HI EASTIES, I ARE BACK.

Haha yea a few days ago my parents just bought a house at Tampines, right beside tpjc. We have a houseeeee. Like finallyyyyyyy. I feel a bit mehhh about staying at tamp, because it's so populated, but since my parents said that the house is rather windy and quiet, then I guess that makes up for the location. Oh and I am seriously dreading having to travel to and fro school once we move T.T I have been staying near school since J1 hahaha I guess it's time to make up for the privilege I have been given these past 4 years. It's damn extreme la, I'm always either staying very near school or very far from school. Time to beg the school to give me a room to stay at PGP haha.

We finally get to properly design our house hehe and you know what's the best thing? We're gonna have a separate room just to place our music instruments, which basically makes it into a music room HEHE awesome possums. But of course, our plans are tentative la haha we still have a few months before we can start renovation and many months till we move in, probably some time in May next year after finals.

Nonetheless, YAY to new house ^^

https://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/singaporescene/peek-life-chee-soon-juan-050517946.html

I haven't really been keeping up with the general elections this year, but I stumbled upon this post regarding Dr Chee Soon Juan. Quite an old post though. Regardless of whether you are pro-government or anti-government, everything that Dr Chee and his family has gone through and sacrificed (as a result of him being an active opposition member over these years) is definitely worth admiration. Both his wife and him have doctorates, you wouldn't have expected them to end up living in a small apartment with three of their children. He could have been able to provide his family with more comfortable lives but no he chose the difficult path, but a path that he deemed right.

Tbh I don't know everything about him as of now, about what he did that caused him to be jailed, but what really resonated with me were his words:

"I'll tell them I'm bankrupt because I was sued, in very simple terms, and they come around and understand. They know and accept it," he says. "I don't hide it from them, it's not like it's a shameful thing. It's how you deal with it. They understand."

Despite what he has been through, Chee said it was every single experience that has made him the person he is.

"Some (decisions) turn out to be the worst ones ever in life, (and) you look back and say, why did I do it in a certain way, but if you didn't do it, you wouldn't learn from it.

"So in a sense you don't look back and regret because you'll find they were very valuable teaching moments, if you will… This is who you are… and if you do learn from it, you become that much better for it," he said.

It's pretty much what I believe in. Which is similar to the title of this blog: Amor Fati. It is a Latin phrase (I actually got to know about it from one of Epik High's song title hahaha) which basically means the love of one's fate. Fate, it's a complex concept, but how I define fate personallt is everything that has taken place or will take place. Sure, you contemplate when making tough decisions, you require a leap of faith to do something, but when you eventually do it, it's all part of fate. So yeah, basically I believe everything is a part of fate. In other words, the phrase would then have the meaning of loving one's life, which is along the lines of Dr Chee's words.

Y'know, I really like this wallpaper of mine hahaha. Idk, I just like the feels you get from it ;)

Oh and probably also because I like foxes/wolves/dog breeds that look like foxes or wolves XD

Falling slowly

汪峰 - 存在

多少人走着却困在原地
多少人活着却如同死去
多少人爱着却好似分离
多少人笑着却满含泪滴

谁知道我们该去向何处
谁明白生命已变为何物
是否找个借口继续苟活
或是展翅高飞保持愤怒
我该如何存在

汪峰 - 春天里

I swear this guy is a freaking genius haha his songs are amazing, I love the instrumentals!! I was kinda surprised since I admit that I'm kinda biased against Chinese artists lol, but he's just too cool, my favourite judge on 中国好声音 ^^ Hmm but I still prefer clean singing styles over coarse-sounding ones like his :p Oh but his normal talking voice is damn sexy HAHAHAHA JUST SAYING~

Dudes. My almost finalised timetable for this sem after dropping 3121. I must must must rmb to go drop it tomorrow morning LOL. DROP DROP DROP LIKE BIRD'S DROPPINGS HEEEEEE.

Over the past 8 hours or so, I have been thinking of a rather crazy idea.

Just the thought of it makes me feel kinda tingly inside... The kind of feeling where you feel the excitement at the possibilities of what could happen, yet also feeling the anxiety at all the uncertainties.

...This can only be a positive vibe right? This is the way one should live life right? At least I feel so. Do things that can, at the simple thought of it, cause your heart to beat faster from the sheer excitement and the anxiousness about it. Don't most of such decisions often end up as one of the best decisions ever made?

I'm not gonna say what my idea is about now, I need to really think more about it first haha. Usually if I say things to early, they often don't end up materialising LOL.

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Anyway, I AM SO FED UP WITH 2121 TUTORIAL RAWR. I spent many hours trying to do two of the questions but no, I'm just no physics kid sigh. It's okay. I've always been a slow learner, just need more time and practice :/

Oh yea and I'll most likely be dropping my CN3121 module, because I'm totally unconfident of being able to juggle all 3 CN modules this sem, considering how 3121 is a module supposedly for year 3s (but I brought it forward to overload this sem). I don't want to be a cocky ass and not know my limits lol. I'm not smart, I'm a slow learner,  and I'm not hardworking enough (cuz I always end up giving in to sleep lol). I also don't want to risk neglecting 2122 and 2121. I rather build a stronger foundation with these two modules first. As to why I even overloaded with 3121 in the first place only to drop it now, I came to this decision of dropping it after going through 1.5 weeks of 2121 and 2122 lectures. Too much man haha it's only the first 1.5 weeks? Can't imagine how later chapters will be like...

Okayz that's all for today, goodnight.

All fired up for the semester!!!....but let's hope that the fire does not die off too soon ^^;

It's the end of week one of Y2S1.

I'm so happy that I got both of the two modules that I had wanted so badly, Science of Music (PC1327) and Social Work (SW1101E) ^^

Used up a lot of my bid points getting these two modules though cuz the bidding points were all craaaaazy high this semester... I spent 300 points on SoM alone. I almost couldn't get SW because the bid points were like what, 500 plus and even 1007 in one of the rounds?! Are ya mad bro. Bid so high for what uh. Yea so I had to appeal after all bidding rounds had ended. Everything was so unsure, I didn't even know if I would be able to get the module or not. But oh well I guess I was lucky eventually to have my appeal accepted :) Tbh, I lied that I was considering of taking a minor in SW and I'd have to take it this semester otherwise I wouldn't be able to complete the requirements of the minor LOL. Hey, everyone does that also okay haha. But if I really like the module (which I'm really looking forward to after the first lecture I attended), I may end up really considering it. What's the use of having a SW minor? Who cares, it's just a minor anyway lol for interest's sake. Anyway so I ended up having 236 points deducted from my general account :( I still have no idea how they decided on the number of points to deduct upon successful appeal.

So far I'm really liking these two modules, they are making me look forward to attending lectures haha! As for my chem eng modules (we call them CN modules cuz of their module codes), I'm just dreading the difficulty level and competitiveness sigh. Plus I'm taking a module that's supposed to be studied only in Y3S1, so essentially I'm competing with the seniors (tgt with the many cheway ppl who have all decided to take it also lol).

Anyway, just a summary of the modules I'll be doing this semester:
CN2121 Thermodynamics
CN2122 Fluid Mechanics
CN3121 Process Dynamics and Control
ACC1002X Financial Accounting
SW1101E Social Work: A Heart-Head-Hand Connection (lol at the name)
PC1327 Science of Music

DOES THIS LOOK AMAZING OR SCARY?

AMAZING.





......AND SCARY.

Hahaha let's do itttttt >:)

Y'know....I don't really know.

Hah what's new.

Gentle Bones - Save Me

Went to NUS rag&flag day on Friday and got to know about Gentle Bones haha. Sorry if I'm lag but it's because I don't really pay attention to our local musicians/YT stars oops, plus I don't even listen to many English songs in the first place. So I was kinda surprised to have heard local musicians who not only have decent live performances but also have songs that suit my preference. It's not that easy for me to find songs that match my taste hahaha.



The singer Joel has a nice voice I got to say, but he seems to be straining his voice when singing the higher notes. Still, already not bad haha. Below is my favourite song out of all their songs, which they also performed on Friday :)

It's back to one of those days where I feel like just hiding in my own shell once again, not having to talk to people. I feel like doing random things by myself but it's kinda at a bad timing since the next two days (and also the last two days of my holidays...) will be crowded everywhere sigh. I really have a sudden urge to go travelling by myself lol. Let's see how this plan goes in the future.

Bon Jovi - Always

The first Bon Jovi song I ever listened to :D

Bon Jovi - We Weren't Born To Follow

Bon Jovi - We Don’t Run (Lyric Video)

BON JOVI~

Humans

Are all relationships so fragile? Are people moving on too fast?

Wouldn't you think it's a pity for a relationship to crumble even though nothing wrong in particular happened? It's just that people realise new things that make them doubt the relationship and decide to stop working on it.

I couldn't pin-point where exactly I felt was weird at the point in time, but I now realised that I was uncomfortable with the fact that people who were once supposedly close could just stop talking to one another and perhaps even stop being concerned about that person. Okay, if I realise that this friend turns out not to be someone whom I would like as a close friend, I would most probably start to distance myself emotionally from that person, but it's too much to be having minimal conversations when both sides did nothing wrong to one another?

I suppose it's good to learn to let go of things, but recently I wonder if 'letting go' has been too overrated to the point that it becomes a convenient excuse for us to not try our best, to be cowards, to go the easy way out. Sometimes I feel like people are moving on too fast. If a relationship doesn't seem to be what they are looking for, they move on to look for new relationships like no one's business and perhaps, say, abandon the old friendship. What about the friendship that existed previously? Do the bonds that were formed earlier not mean anything? IDK.

Btw disclaimer here: This was not targeted towards anyone okay...it just got me thinking about people these days and tbh I think I'm guilty of this towards some people too.

Speaking of which, I don't know if it's good to not think much about things and stay ignorant or to think, think, think and risk over-thinking lol. I used to think a lot about things when I was much younger, so that made me quite a scheming kid I would say haha and I was too sensitive over many things. Then one day I realised how much over-thinking was harming myself and it's just way too tiring mentally, so from then on I decided to stop thinking too deep into things. If I had continued doing so, I would probably have turned into one of those unscrupulous people hahaha. On the other hand, thinking less probably made me less smart LOL. Yea so I usually just avoid exposing myself to complicated situations. (......I don't really know what I'm writing already, my brain is about to go into sleep mode....) But in the end, this made me become ignorant of many things and perhaps also apathetic, which is a no go.

It's been a while since I last typed such a post, just shows how long I have not been thinking HAHA. Oh wells. School is starting soon. I feel so unprepared somehow. Time to sleep.

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Sometimes I have things I want to say, but I also don't wish to cause disrupt the current state.

ONE OK ROCK - The Beginning

Taka and his intense eyes *_* too sexy in this performance hehehe.

It's amazing how he can still sound so perfect even though he was clearly exhausted (this being the last song of the concert) and while he was head banging?!

ONE OK ROCK - Mighty Long Fall

OMG WHY DOES TAKA LOOK SO GOOD IN THIS CONCERT??!! <3

And I love the arrangement here wheeheeee.

Written with a one-quarter rotting foot

It's been almost two weeks since I came back from Philippines, but I have yet to write about it. Apart from my laziness, it's because 1) I don't know where to start from 2) look at previous point. To cut it short, even though I figured that OCIP is not something that I would return to again, this trip was a once in a lifetime experience and I definitely do not regret joining it, in fact it's a blessing for me to have even joined Cheway.

One of the biggest takeaway would be the opportunity to have worked with an amazing team. I really dk how different things may have been if I was working with an entirely different group of people. Although it's highly unlikely that we would be able to keep in touch with all the members once school resumes, I still hope that there'll be this attachment amongst members.

My brain is somehow not really working right now haha it must have turned rusty over the past few months of holidays. Anyway, I still have my accounts to complete T-T

Oh and I went canyoneering during our r&r, I was so glad that I decided to just yolo and go for it even though I did not pack an extra set of clothes or towel on that day lol. Lucky there was a shop that sold some clothes that were quite cheap. It was damn fun! Even though it cost me to return back with infected wounds LOL. One of the wound is still recovering even till today :( I think this is one of the worst wound I ever got.

Okay bye. What a poorly constructed post lol.

Faster than a bullet train....

That's life, huh.

Pre-Cheway thoughts

Flying off to Philippines in 9 hours' time for Cheway!

After months of preparation, the real deal is finally here haha. Excited, nervous, scared, and many other emotions all mixed together. Doesn't help that recently there have been quite a number of news with regards to Philippines... but I know that I can depend on the people that I will be going over with! Shall not think and worry too much, let's just hold on to the faith yea.

Good job to the team for the past few months (close to a year now), let's do our best for the trip too! Let's gooooo, see you all in two weeks' time, will be back on the 22nd night! ^^

Mate - It's Alright

*Inserts emoji with heart eyes*



I'm gonna listen to their songs when I'm on the plane sleeping haha.

I am air,
And you are breath.
And I am earth,
And you are my dreams.
I am Faust,
And you are Mephisto.
I am you,
But you are not me.

#nowplaying #audioletter

ladiladididoooooo~

The past week had been rather hectic. First was travelling down to AMK in the morning on Monday and Tuesday for local CIP (it's a requirement for our ocip) It had been a while since I travelled so far in the early morning hehe. Shall skip ahead about the detail on the CIP. In short, kids are just so damn full of energy lol. And of course cuteness too. Credits to programmes for the well thought planning and execution *claps*.

Wednesday was the only real free day of the week, but I ended up travelling down to Seng Kang for Gordon's birthday celebration (the other half of the Cheway people were there for local CIP) and since I had about four hours to kill before my dad's (super early) birthday dinner, I went shopping by myself haha. And I ended up spending about $100 wth. I bought one running shorts, two shorts and a guitar strap. I should just burn off my atm card -.-

Thursday and Friday was dry run for chess camp. Tbh it was quite slack hahaha for the ogls at least. It was much more tiring for the camp comm of course. I kinda like my og! We are not the most enthu or crazy ogls out there, but we can click somehow haha probably because most of us knew each other beforehand. I didn't get to experience the fright night in the end, even though it's a pity, but it's not like I'm actually complaining y'know....hahaha.

Today I spent the entire day travelling around in the car with my parents (my sis is at Europe now, jealous much...). First was breakfast, then collecting some stuff for my mum's work, then collecting the free Delsey luggage from signing up for a card that my mum had been chasing them for MONTHS, then we spent the entire afternoon viewing houses haha. Damn shag man plus you don't get to sit down when you're viewing houses LOL. We have yet to find a suitable house, but tbh we have quite a lot of criteria I'd say lol. But it's a huge investment so of course my parents have to be picky. Also considering how it would be a house where they will be spending their retiree life in, so yeah the search continues~

What a meaningless post LOL. Bye.

Heeeeeh I ordered a Condor guitar from Carousell in the end, the seller is gonna come deliver it tomorrow evening!! :D It's just a rather basic guitar la cuz electric guitars are quite expensive and I don't want to invest so heavily right from the start.

Yup so just the guitar alone costs $150. I also need an amplifier but I didn't want to buy those big ones cuz they are expensive and loud lol. So i decided on a VOX amPhone AC-30 which costs $99. I just ordered it online last night at like 2am haha so hopefully I'll be able to receive by tmr LOL or by Monday. Yea so in total I have spent $249 T.T

I'm gonna help my mum work for a day to make up for this expenditure haha but i can only earn about $80 :(

Oh ya and my sis gave me one of the cheap guitar picks she bought from Australia when I told her that I'm gonna learn it haha yay.

Update again when I receive my guitar!! :)

I think I'm crazy... I'm actually seriously thinking of learning the electric guitar.

I'm serious. I just spent almost the entire morning researching on the types of guitar and amp and whatnot. I may end up investing up to $300 on this omg. This excludes any lesson fees if I were to sign up for one. There goes my money..... T-T

But the reason that is making me go for it is that I don't want to regret not attempting to learn it. I mean, if I don't do it now, it would even be less likely for me to do it in the future right? So why not now?

If everything works out, this would be my "CCA" for next semester onwards haha.

For now I'm not going to make an impulsive decision so I'm maybe I'll pop by the music shop later and get some advice haha.

Mate - It's all about love

Freaaaakk I'm loving this band more and more hahaha. Oh and it turns out that the disbandment was temporary only LOL. Yayz :D

Chicago - Hard to Say I'm Sorry

Good old classics ;)

Small love, big difference

This is the tagline for Picolove (the ocip organised by FASS). I'm not trying to flame them or anything lol I just happened to see some photos on FB and it made me want to post something.

I feel that this tagline quite accurately (why not big love lol) reflects the very initial motivation of most people who decide to join an ocip. We all start out with a determination to make a difference in others' live, the people who are living a poorer and tougher life than us. Of course, I believe that this also applies to our Cheway members.

However, all these hopes and misconceptions were brought down during the Cheway 2D1N camp a few days ago. It was the first time we met Carol, the facilitator from the organisation we were working with, and I believe she made an impact on all of us there.

Instead of encouraging us on our project like what you would probably have expected of a facil, she did the exact opposite (okay maybe not to the extent of discouraging us, but yea) - she told us right in the face told us that our project will not have a long-term impact and that our presence there will cause inconvenience to the people there. Note the italics. She said it with so much conviction, without even a sense of doubt, so can you imagine how we felt at that very moment?

Right now you may feel that she was being an ass to just shoot us down like that and to ruin our hopes, but just think about it. All she did was to make us face the facts. More than anything or anyone else, we are the ones who will benefit the most from this project. Where's the 'big difference' we aimed to see? In the first place it would even be an achievement if we are able to not be an inconvenience.

So when I saw the tagline on fb, I wondered if Pico had managed to achieve what they set out for. How about all the other ocips? If they failed to achieve it, I feel this whole ocip thing is all a farce. What "small love, big difference", what "Watering lives, nurturing communities" (lol Cheway's tagline)... They all seem to just glorify the meaning and significance of ocips, when it all actually only boils down to self-learning.

That's why I decided that I'm not gonna join another ocip. I mean, it has been an enriching journey thus far, even joining ocip and realising what it really is in itself has been a lesson, but it's not what I'm looking for. It may be a little to early to say this, but it's what I feel so far. I will still do my best for it of course, because of the people that I have been working with.

Anyway, I was talking to Jason a little during the 2D1N, and I think it's very true how it's important to have Carol to talk to us (or someone of a 'different level'), since she's a very experienced person. Although what she was telling us about was what the PDs had told the exco previously, the impact was too different haha.

Mate - I Love You

https://youtu.be/0KJvKEIGW88

Beautiful song, it's so my style of music haha.

Just got to know about this k-indie band called Mate. Unfortunately they have already disbanded back in 2013 :( Why... Good songs, good voices, hot drummer (LOL).

Lyrics:
We're too different
You know that well
We aren't able to embrace
Each other's realities

"I don't understand"
"I don't remember"
Words that will always just be words
I don't expect them

I love you (x5)
To your warm touch...

We're too different
You know that well
We aren't able to embrace
Each other's wounds

The words won't come
It won't listen
My heart won't
Move like a heart

I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you

To your warm touch...

I love you, I love you
(What are you thinking? What are you saying?)
I love you, I love you
(Show me your feelings, I have no way of knowing)
I love you, I love you
(No matter how hard I try to push you out, even if I burn all my feelings)
(I can't do it. I must be in love with you)
I love you, I love you

To your warm touch...

Please hold me
Please catch me

What's your intention?

Just a quick post about the conversation I had with my dad last night in the car.

I think I have mentioned about this here before - if people do acts of kindness or do volunteer work to make themselves happy or to feel good, then does it downplay the value of their actions?

People say that they volunteer because it is something that they enjoy, because they want a new experience, because they want to give back to society, because they want to feel a sense of accomplishment. And so you realise, eventually it all boils down to their very own self; what they feel happy doing, what they want to achieve, what makes them feel better about themselves.

While I have always believed that helping people or volunteering should be something altruistic, it is a fact that most, if not many, people do so for other reasons. Myself included, of course. For myself, it makes me feel happy when I can help people. I've been having doubts about myself over this though. In the past I thought that oh, if I feel happy helping people, it means that I like being useful and being able to lighten people's burden right? That's good, and so I tried helping people whenever I can.

But in all honesty, deep inside myself, I have been having this doubt that maybe, just maybe, it could be an issue of ego. If I am able to help someone, it means I am useful, it means that I have done something good, it means that I am a good person...? But of course, in order to (seemingly) make my life better, I simply pushed this guilt back inside my heart each time it creeps out.

Yesterday my dad brought up an important reminder about the importance of one's intentions. It's a simple concept yes, and clearly my intention is to help others because it makes me happy. However, what's more important here would be: WHY does it make me happy? Is it simply because of the fact that I am helping others (i.e. the act itself), or is it really because the people I am helping can truly be happier/have less to worry about (i.e. the result). For the former, the intentions revolve around one's self (even if one may not be aware of it), whereas for the latter, the intentions revolve around others.

Right now, I would say that the ratio for my intentions would be 40-60. It was hard to come to the fact that I am still largely self-centred as much as I thought and hoped I am not, but I guess it's human instincts. Basic survival instincts of living things. On the bright side though, I feel that if it were a few years back, this ratio would have been heavier on the left side. The very day where this ratio becomes 0-100 would be the day I would have succeeded as a person.

Heeeeh. Idk why but I'm in a great mood now haha. Just like how my room has become brighter after opening up my curtain which has been closed for the past week HAHA. (If you get me, that is a metaphor hahaha albeit being a lousy one.) Maybe it's because my thoughts have cleared. Perhaps I should have one-to-one conversations with my dad more often (on the appropriate topics of course since he has some rather extreme views I would say haha). I usually don't really like talking about serious topics with him because he's too long-winded LOL and he can be rather subjective. But yeah I suppose if I am able to just be patient and remain objective myself, having more of such conversations would be beneficial.

Oh well, it seems that this post wasn't a very quick post after all haha! If I am not feeling too lazy I will post about my Aussie trip later today :)

As Kaining always says, 感恩

Haha how's the title? ;)

Today has been a rather fulfilling day. Went to collect newspapers and old clothes for Cheway in the morning, but had to leave during lunch time for the laser tag game with the shg kids. Really grateful to the entire team for being so cooperative even though it was very tiring! ^^

On to the main point of this post and on to something more serious. Today I was rather shocked to hear that someone, who is just one year older than I am, had recently found out that he has high cholesterol levels(even though it's borderline). What was even more shocking was that he was no where near fat or plump and in fact he is actually rather skinny. Of all people to have high cholesterol, he would probably have been the last person you would have expected.

It's really so ironic (I know this is not the right word, I can't seem to think of the correct one...). Because he has been skinny for such a long time, he has always been trying to gain weight by eating more meals, which evidently was not effective. And it's most likely because of this reason that resulted in his high cholesterol levels.

Afterwards I also learnt that someone else had some health issues recently also. Someone who is also in his early twenties. It's a long story, but to cut it short, just earlier in the day when we were teasing him as usual of his hair, but he seemed a more sensitive than usual. I was rather taken aback tbh because he's usually ok with such things. So when I heard about his recent health problem and the medications that he was taking, I felt very very bad for laughing along.

And of course Lynn also. Please take better care of yourself..

So that's why don't ever take your youth, your health and your friends for granted. Don't take anything for granted. Anything can happen to you or your friends or family...and it can happen any time.

I was just telling my dad just now about the good thing about going out with guy friends - you don't have to worry about the directions. Haha because girls (IN GENERAL) have a poorer sense of direction so when I'm out with my girl friends or my mum and sis, I'm usually the one finding the directions and whatnot since someone has to find the directions. But when you're out with guys, you can leave all the directions finding to them hahaha. That's what happened when we went to Swee Choon on Thursday XD That being said, I still think I have quite a good sense of direction ;) HAHA.

I guess this example actually kind of reflects my life in general? I mean, I grew up trying to fill up the gaps and that's how my personality is formed. I don't have a very distinct personality by nature I would say, but rather my personality was shaped by the circumstances I was in and the people around me. Such is the life of a person whose life is shape by others lol. That's why my personality is so extreme from my sister's. I tried to become a person who could make up for her flaws. And perhaps it's also because of this that I'm lacking her strengths.

For most parts I feel that this isn't something good. Having a life dependent on others is almost like letting others define who you are, which shouldn't ever be the case. But it also made me become who I am today. I'm still in the process of figuring out my real personality though haha.

#whatrandomthoughts

Ahh. Idk what to say. Just...I guess I have come to accept the fact. Yeah. Okay. That's good. Very good. Yup.

Haaaaah I really dk if it's ok to just keep running away like this.

This has been a very nonsensical post lol. Sorry gonna go sleep now haha.

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Y'know how people say that you can be alone but not feel lonely? I used to think that being alone was a lonely thing, so I learnt to enjoy doing things alone and my mindset changed. But now I wonder if it's possible to enjoy being alone and feel lonely at the same time?

I guess people change their perspectives to make it easier for them to persevere on, to make it easier to live.

(Oops I'm going to bed now for real lol)

I LOVE NIGHTS LIKE THESE WHERE I DON'T HAVE TO SET AN ALARM WHEEHEEE. GOODNIGHT WORLD.

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE STILL HAVING EXAMS!

宇多田ヒカル - 光

Yay another song that I used to spam. Also take a moment to laugh at how ridiculous the music video is LOL. The lyrics sucks as usual because of the translation :/



I was always all alone
And I’d forgotten my destiny
And now suddenly, at midnight, my eyes have opened in a light

Stand quietly at the exit and light shining through the darkness

Will promises made now only cause anxiety?
I just want to put my wish into words
I’ll even introduce you to my family, it’s sure to go well

We’re always together
You’re always by my side
A light called “you” has found me at midnight

Join this noisy road and take off Fate’s mask

You’re making too many predictions for the future; stop it, it doesn’t mean anything
Today, let’s just eat something delicious
The future is way ahead of us, I don’t even know what will happen

Don’t make it perfect, just make it a little better
Just take it one scene at a time
The light called “you” reflects my every scenario

Let’s talk a little more about the future that’s appeared before our eyes
Turn off the TV, look only at me

No matter how good it is, I can’t fully believe it
And even then, you’re by my side
A light called “you” has found me at midnight

Let’s talk a little more about the future that’s appeared before our eyes
Turn off the TV, look only at me

宇多田ヒカル - First Love

Another classic song in my life. All the feels haha.









Our last kiss
Tasted like tobacco
A bitter and sad smell

Tomorrow, at this time
Where will you be?
Who will you be thinking about?

You are always gonna be my love
Even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
It's still a sad song
Until I can sing a new song

The paused time is
About to start moving
There's many things that I don't want to forget about

Tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you

You will always be inside my heart
You will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
It's still a sad song
Until I can sing a new song

You are always gonna be my love
Even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
It's still a sad song
Until I can sing a new song

Shuo Hao De Xing Fu Ne 說好的幸福呢 (Where Is the Promised Happiness?) MV - Ja...

周杰倫【聽爸爸的話 官方完整MV】Jay Chou "Listen to Dad" MV (Ting-Ba-Ba-De-Hua)

Oh man such a sad song :'(

周杰倫【聽爸爸的話 官方完整MV】Jay Chou "Listen to Dad" MV (Ting-Ba-Ba-De-Hua)

Oh man such a sad song :'(

周杰倫【手寫的從前 官方完整MV】Jay Chou "Handwritten Past" MV (Shou-Xie-De-Cong-Qian)

Hooooh... I've not been listening to much Jay Chou songs haha. In fact I haven't been listening to much Chinese songs. I came across a few of his latest songs which are of similar style to his older songs which I like ^^

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

- Mother Theresa

Sometimes people think they know you. They know a few facts about you, and they piece you together in a way that makes sense to them. And if you don't know yourself very well, you might even believe that they are right. But the truth is, that isn't you. That isn't you at all.

- Leila Sales

OH YEAH ONE DAY LEFT. To be exact it's 14 hours left :D

HBD

Happy birthday to my dear Younha hehe (I'm in time!). 27 this year :x

It's been 6.5 years since I fell in love with her voice haha. Over the years her singing techniques have changed, it's more refined now, but I do hope she'll go back to covering more rock songs like in the past haha! She's not the best singer out there, but definitely one of the best Korean singers of her generation. Her songs have played a big role in my life thus far (the entire of my secondary and JC life) yep so it's really not something that can be easily replaced.

I shall stop my fangirling hahaha. Below is a video of her performing (last year) a song that she self-composed and wrote the lyrics for, titled "That Street". Sorry about the Chinese lyrics (fantizi some more haha) but I feel that the English translation is just too lousy lol.

P.s. If her name sounds familiar to any of you anime geeks, it's because she sang for one of the Bleach songs, Houki Boshi ^^





That Street lyrics:

溫暖陽光都隨你散退的街上

夜幕降臨滯留在那條街

不知不覺一兩盞照著我

為躲避燈光而加快步伐

為了你 你為了我

說要必須轉身離開

為了我 我為了你

真的做了最後道別

不再是一次兩次的離別

隨時間消逝就會忘記吧

明白這些的我

不知該怎麼辦

獨自走過那條街的我

微笑都隨你離去的街上
沿著冷雨連連的那條街
不知不覺走進黑暗巷子
你不在卻感受你的氣息

為了你 你為了我

只說必須要轉身離開

為了我 我為了你

真的也做了最後道別

不再是一次兩次的離別

隨時間消逝就會忘記吧

明白這些的我

不知該怎麼辦

獨自走過那條街的我

其實我沒有那樣自信

若一體重新變成兩人

也可能就此無法挽回

若你也害怕成為我的全部

同行的路也就走到了盡頭

已不再是一次兩次的離別

裝作沒事發生般回來才好

相信這些的我

不知該怎麼辦

獨自走過這條街的我