Fuck. I'm feeling so much like a hypocrite. How do I handle things nicely without being a hypocrite... Easiest way would be to just bluntly put things across but I don't want to make things ugly and I don't think I'll be able to make myself say it. Things would be so much simpler if.

Through these it also shows something. It is so different from my style of doing things.

Maybe my new year resolution was too difficult a goal for me to handle...