....but nothing's all that merry.
Everything hasn't been going well. Not at all.
Tell me something that I'm doing well in. I can't think of any.
Full of negative thoughts these few days, thoughts that I have been trying to suppress back into my mind, but it seems that it's not helping and it probably is making it even worse.
Am I even in the right place? It's not like I don't put in the effort. Sure, I don't deserve an A but not these grades either.
It doesn't even help that my mum doesn't seem to find it an issue. When I told her my results, she simply said, "So, what to do? Work harder next time." Wtf. I mean she has never scolded me for bad grades (except once in P5 I think) and for that I'm thankful and I'm not faulting her for what she said, it's just that do I continue on doing what I've been doing despite it obviously not working out? Sometimes working hard is not everything. Especially not if it's for something that I do not entirely like and cannot imagine myself doing for the next couple of years. Y'know. But what else can I do.
Ahh fuck this shit man.
Santa, this is the first time I'm requesting for a Christmas gift. A gift that can enlighten me. Please. Thank you. See you tonight.
Merry Christmas pepo!
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