Stay grateful

Let me just remind myself again that life has been rather good to me the past 19 years. There have been a few occasions whereby I do get what I wished for.

In primary school, my parents wanted me to enter the top two schools, but I didn't want to and secretly I wished to get into dhs. When the results came out and I applied for the schools based on my parent's wishes, but it turns out I had missed the cut-off point by just a few decimal points and I was allocated to dhs. That was not the end though, because my mum made me appeal for nygh and I went (at that time I was terrible at voicing out my opinions, even towards my family), but of course I didn't make it through. That's how I ended up in dhs, the school that I secretly wanted to enter. I still find it amazing really, it's like fate.

And of course, thanks to this, I was able to meet some of the most important people in my life, who I believe will continue to be of great significance to my life even in the far future.

Why I say life has been good to me is because while I eventually do get what I wished for, they do not come easily. I mean, it seems as though if one single thing had turned out differently, I would not have been able to get what I wanted. If I had a slightly higher aggregate score or if I had succeeded in the appeal, I wouldn't have spent the past 6 years in dhs, and not to say meet the people there. Another example would be A levels. What I wanted was simply to get into chem eng, which I am in now, and to me it didn't matter how many As I get. Turns out I scored well enough to get into the course I wanted, but not well enough to get into any other more prestigious courses or to get a scholarship. Of course, I'm not downplaying the effort I put in, it could be that I worked sufficiently hard to get what I wanted. So if I had aimed higher I probably would have worked even harder and got it as well. But either way, life has been fair to me. It has given me the minimum of my expectations at the least.

My family and friends are healthy, I'm born in a place that is free from disasters, I'm able-bodied with no major illnesses, born to a family that's relatively well to do with one of the kindest parents ever who will always protect and look over me, I have friends who genuinely care for me. What else do I want? Stop neglecting the things I already have and be grateful.

From the very bottom of my heart, thank you guys.