Sigh I really dk what I'm working towards... No goal = no meaning = no drive

Is it a good or bad thing to base your own happiness on other people's happiness? I feel like I'm living my life for the people in my life. Now I don't even know what I want in MY life that doesn't concern any other people except for myself.

And it sucks to feel like I'm not able to contribute cuz of my limited capabilities. I just want to share people's burden. But am I in the position to do so if I can't even do my own job well...

What is my life all about? What do I really want in life?! Where on earth am I heading towards?!

Questions that I must figure out asap...