Honestly speaking, uni life was not what I expected. It is so much more fast-paced than JC life because you're expected to learn so much content and master them all within a semester/15 weeks. Not to mention that everyone else is equally or even more capable than you are. For my first sem, I kinda regretted taking up Sociology hahaha. I mean sure, it was interesting when you listen to the lecturers talk about how they analyse something sociologically and it gives you new perspective, but, as with most other Humanities subject, studying for this subject was a damned burden! Then again, I guess I gained some knowledge in the sense that I can throw out names of some Sociologists like Weber, Durkheim, Marx... (but really, these are the 3 big sociologists that we have to know at the very least HAHA).
Matlab was another huge burden. Friends around me would have heard me complaining about this programming module over and over again. I'm sorry I just can't help but to let it all out >< I really think I'm super screwed for my exam, considering how apparently everyone is doing quite well according to our lab TA. Ugh whatever at the most I'll just retake this module next sem... CN was okay, not exactly very interesting but still fine. The exam paper was horrible though. I only knew how to do 3/6 questions in the paper and I'm not even confident that my final answer is correct :o But somehow it seems like most people found the paper hard too so I'm not alone haha! It's all up to the bell curve now... I really cannot afford to offend the bell curve god cuz I didn't do well for my mid-terms sigh. Nothing much to say about math and GEK (another burden ._.)
Apart from studies, uni life is still not what I had expected. Because I have met a group of friends that I really like and feel comfortable around to just be myself. Really thankful for knowing the Cheway exco, who included me in their study groups despite my lack of contribution :( Yea I basically spent the last 3 weeks studying with them, plus Haolin (Lynn, please don't...), in school everyday that I'm so sick of the food at Techno! Without their company, I really think I'll just die from the stress and boredom from studying. And not to mention the resources that they generously share amongst each other. Who says the world is cold-hearted? The world is filled with kind people. I really hope I'll be able to stick through these 4 years with this gang.
And idk if he'll even see this, but I'm really thankful for Jason for including me in many of his groups, like Cheway and the outstanding engineers lol. If not because of his friendliness (which I even felt that he was too friendly for my liking on the first day I met him hahaha) I probably would not be as outgoing as I am right now. You have no idea how surprised I was when that day Sherman and Zhikang mentioned in the whatsapp chat that they thought I am an extrovert. LOL right. I was like HUH are they being serious?! Then I thought about it and yeah I probably wouldn't have spoken this way back in JC. I figured it was because having someone around that I was comfortable with made me open up myself easier. I guess I'm achieving my goal of being less conservative and just having fun (but I still think I'm far from being an extrovert la)! I held back too much in the past, mainly because I was afraid of offending/hurting people if I made spoke carelessly to them. My close friends would know that I'm kinda GL hahaha but I behave like that to people I know who won't get offended and can just joke around. That was probably because I tried to hard to please everyone, I didn't like it if someone disliked me. But now I don't really care lol unless we're talking about someone I like (as a friend/person). Life is much easier this way~
Oh and another thing, it must be the bad influence from the polluted cheway exco because stirring has kind of become a habit -.- I'm sorry guys please give me some time to get rid of this bad habit haha. And I realised I have been saying 'I don't know' way too often lol it just makes me appear thoughtless so I should refrain from that too. Speaking of which, I really should start thinking about what I want in life...
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