I think I feel happier these days. Like genuinely happy. Is it because I am at peace? I think I'm slowly figuring out more things about the way I want to live my life. It's good. Having a direction is so important. Just a general direction for now though, still restricted by pragmatic considerations, but I'm just gonna go with the flow~

Suddenly feeling the uncertainty in life. So many questions. So many doubts. What exactly is right or wrong.

I have never really dreaded the working life, but after hearing things from different people and experiencing some things during internship, I'm starting to feel the apprehension. Most people seem to be rather negative towards work life lol.

Why can't the world just be a kinder place to live and work in...

Anw just to end off with a quote from Wonder Woman which I just watched 3 days back (yes I know, that's late). The words just struck a chord somehow.

"It's not about deserve. It's about what you believe."

I think it's been a long time since my happiness streak lasted so long. Despite slowly feeling the sadness as next Friday approaches, which signals the end of my internship, I think I have been blessed over the many weeks. Life is currently so much better than during a regular school term lol. Probably depends on your internship also la but yeah I have been lucky.

Then again, I don't know if I'm being too overly-attached to the people and the workplace. It's probably too common for them to see people come and go. Oh wells. At least there are the memories. 

Was discussing about some politics at work with the fellow interns over dinner today. I still stand by my notion that usually the person who always talks badly about some other person in the company is often not any better himself. Especially not when he shares such things with interns. Really makes me doubt the intentions of him doing so. And it's sad how easily influenced the interns can be since they have never really interacted with the person of topic and they tend to listen to whatever they're told by the superiors.

Never fully believe what you hear until you verify it on your own...

ONE OK ROCK 『We are ～18Fes Jap ver.～』

This is just crazy :O

Arghhh did I just make a wrong move again... 😧

Honestly speaking, idk why my r/s with my sis is the way it is now. Looking back at our childhood photos, we seemed to have had so much fun tgt. Now we don't even say much to each other, don't even mention hanging out and chilling tgt. I might sound petty saying this, but, she didn't even wish me for my birthday. Isn't it the very basic to just wish someone? It's almost like we're strangers living under the same roof...what on earth. Abt 1.5 months ago on her birthday, I admit I did feel hesitant to actually wish her happy birthday (idk why I felt this way too), but I still did in the end. She didn't join us for lunch today, because of her work so its understandable, but I don't think she even tried to have a meal together or something. I feel like I'm being a kid here now but this lack of interaction/kinship or whatever you call it just sucks.

Ok i just needed to rant a little.