I think, bit by bit, we are changing in some ways. These changes may not be obvious and it's too early to determine if it's for the better or worse, but I shall just believe in the former.

I have been pondering over something for the past few weeks (about two months in fact). Again, no one knows whether the result of this decision, if made, would be positive or not. But now's not the time for this haha I'm leaving this till after finals.

1) I guess it's still best to remain distant.

2) I'm seriously having doubts about what I am doing now.

3) I need to do something new soon life is getting boring.

4) I'm going to Hang Zhou this Dec!

5) If this blog can no longer be found any time soon, it just means I changed the url and I'll only be disclosing it to some ppl

雨の香り - Younha

Halfway done with my MIDI composition! ^^

And I've got to say that I'm rather satisfied with what I have as of now hehe. It's about 70%-80% complete I guess? I'm left with most of the rhythms and some details here and there. The song may sound ridiculous to some haha but come on I'm an amateur here XD Super fun haha I spent most of my weekend exploring the software and testing out some sounds.

Once it is there, it is there.

I guess it always will be there.

Oh well. Haha.

I just recorded a few short melodies in my phone for my SOM assignment and I had a realisation that my tunes were heavily influenced by Jay Chou LOL. Somehow or rather the melodies that I came up with sounded similar to those composed by him.... Of course mine can't be compared to his la I'm like level zero while he's alr at a god level hahaha but it sounds similar. Maybe I'm just playing out melodies that I have heard before somewhere and have been tucked into the very corners of my memory XD

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Yes, no matter what happiness and health comes first. So please take care of yourselves people! And of course you too dear Kaining :) Thanks for reminding me that while we may be caught up in our own struggles, we should not forget that people around are probably and most likely facing similar difficulties. Keep a look out for people around you. Jiayou everyone!

You see the 2nd line under 'marks'? Yup that's my score.

Scored my first 0 in uni yayz.

I kinda expected it after the test but it's still so damn demoralizing. At first I thought my marks have yet to be keyed in when I saw the big fat 0 but nah that was the reality LOL.

Really fuck this shit man. The number of hours I spend on fluid tutorials and pyp is so not worth this freaking oval-shaped creature. Maybe I'm not doing it right. I know I can be really unproductive. But I tried. But when the paper came I got too affected again and poof everything went down the drain. This is one of my worst issues that I have yet to learn to overcome.

So now what? I can only push on right. No one to blame except my self. Hope for things to be a little better. At most I retake the module. And retake. And retake. Or switch to another course. Hmmm sounds enticing? But that means extending my undergrad years. Means more money. Means I delay graduation and start work later. Means my parents have to retire later.

..........What exactly is the point that I am trying to drive across?

Wtv man that's all I have got to rant. Live with it. Get over it. Move on. Work harder.

Sorry for the vulgarity yeah.