I think I'm constituted 70% darkness/negativity deep inside of me. I've been trying to flip over this ratio (for the math geeks, it's like taking the reciprocal lol), but it seems like it isn't really working. This is part of my character. But you know what, I'm just gonna keep trying. Try and become a brighter (in terms of the brains too) person. Because why should I live my life like this? I know it's hard to change one's character, but no let's do something about it.

I have no idea how to do this though. Maybe I shall start with some self-help books. I have always been against self-help books because I don't really see the point, isn't life about figuring things out yourself? That's also why I usually don't approach people with my problems, I think I have mentioned this before. But perhaps I could try books for a change, to try out a new way and see if it works.

This seems a little random considering how it's way too late for new year resolutions, but better late than never right? So yea things I want to work on:

1) Stop self-doubting => gain confidence
2) Negate any negativity
3) Prioritise => Better time management => Make more time for people

Thank you to everyone who showed concerned over my supposedly emo posts the past week or so, I really appreciate it <3 I'm going to clear up my mind and become a better person. No one likes to be with a negative person right. I know how it feels to be with one even though I am one myself haha. I just need some time.

YAY. YAY. YAY. (Weak attempt at trying to be high LOL)