I'm feeling the stress again. The inferiority complex is coming back..
I went for consultation with the OUTSTANDING chem engineers (lol that's the WA group chat name) today and they all seemed to be able to do the papers fairly easily and had questions to ask the prof. I really dk what I was doing there cuz I didn't have anything to ask. Or rather, I didn't know what to ask. That's the thing, if you really know what you're doing, you should have questions to ask otherwise you don't really understand. So I was just there trying to catch up with their discussion but failed to.
They all seemed like smart people who can solve the questions in half the time I took to solve it. I was never a smart student. I was at most a hardworking student, at worst a mugger. Since JH times, I was never in the 'smart classes'. Okay I know I shouldn't think this way, that's why I say it's an inferiority complex. It really sucks to feel like you're the only one feeling screwed.
Even for math, I'm struggling just attempting the previous mid-term papers. Like seriously, math is supposed to be the one that is comparatively more manageable. Sem 1 is supposed to be the most manageable sem out of the 4 years. So now what?!
It's come to the extent where I'm actually regretting choosing this course. I should have chosen Chemistry instead even though it may be less practical in a way.

Anyway, just in case some of you are wondering what even made me choose this course then, I'm actually interested in the production of consumer products like soap, cosmetics etc. And chemical engineering =/= engineering haha