ARGH what a disruption to my otherwise peaceful life :/ wtheck man

Today is another feel good day :) I hope the day never ends haha. But nah tomorrow shall be another feel good day. And the day after tomorrow. And the following day. And the follwing day after the following day... Everyday! 😀

Hehhh I'm currently listening to some old anime songs on Spotify haha. Random much but all the anime feels are backkkkk. Snippets of the opening/closing scenes of the anime just flash by haha how nostalgic. I watched the most anime when I was in upper primary I think? That's at least 10 years ago haha wow...but it really was a large part of my childhood.

I have been so exhausted for the past few days, probably mainly because I lose out on the sleep I usually get on the car. My dad is letting me drive to work so that I can practice my driving. So yeah I will drive from Tampines, drop by NUS where my mum alights, then head towards my office. Once I reach my office, my dad takes back the driver's seat and drives to his office. Haha that's how the arrangement is like in the morning. But considering how energy draining it is for me to drive to work, I'm thinking of letting my dad drive instead hahahaha. Ok la maybe I will drive on some days only, not every morning. Otherwise it's also tiring for him to drive everyday...

Ciaos. Time to sleep lol.

In a rather good mood now ^^ It's such a rare ocassion that I'm texting so much at a go.

I guess I'm just feeling excited after my first day of internship.

Batch production, agglomeration, heating, cooling, drying, fluidization. Some of the key terms relevant to chemical engineering in the manufacturing process. However, the department I'm in doesn't deal that much with engineering related issues, but more of quality and regulatory (i.e. compliance) matters. Even so, I'm not disappointed with my job scope or anything, because it's all about learning and I still get exposed to the engineering side of the process (and I already knew what I was applying for). I think this is an appropriate position to begin at to go into the food industry.

Err I actually dk what else I want to write hahaha and I need to sleep soon. My dad's car is still at the workshop for repair (for almost a month can you believe it) so we have to take public transport down to the far west to the far east early in the morning :'(

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Happy new year.

Ushered in the new year in the comfort of my home. Nothing special and exciting like last year's countdown with the girls at the Flyer, but it still marks the start of a new year nonetheless.

I never really understood the big deal about a new year and why people make new year resolutions. The minute hand of the clock moves away from the 59-minute mark when the time reaches 00:00 every single day of our life, what makes it any more significant on this one day out of the 365 days? There's no magical, glittery, fairytale-like effect when the new year begins.

That being said, I guess a 'new start' gives one the hope (or excuse, whichever you think is more appropriate) and motivation to start working on the areas that one is lacking. Besides, the idea of coming up with 'new year resolutions' forces one to properly reflect on life thus far and carefully think about how to proceed on in life.

Since the day I met up with XM and Nic about two weeks ago, I have been thinking more about my direction in life. Well, I have actually always been pondering over it, just that I never end up with a clear conclusion. But yeah, hearing about XM's life plans made me doubt myself a little. Have I been too small-minded with regards how I would want my future to be like? When I heard xm share her life plans, my initial response to it was 'wow', even though I didn't voice it out haha. I have always been amazed at her courage to pursue her dreams, but this also prompted me to think...

Why is it that such a plan never occurred to me before? All along I have been unconsciously resisting ideas that appear 'impossible' at this point in time. Things like starting up a small business, doing music, social work etc. were things that crossed my mind over the past few years, but I seem to have conveniently dismissed them as unpractical, unsuitable, or worse, 'different from the path I'm currently on'. Why the heck am I studying chemical engineering if I were to go onto such paths. Clearly because you failed to plan well. Yes, I failed to be determined in furthering my interests in a certain area and to develop it into a real passion, that's why I made unwise choices. But I'm already into the second semester of my third year, it's too late to pull out now. Then again, I don't have to stupidly continue down the same path if I know that it's not what I want. I still have the chance to do something about it rather than regret it for the rest of my life.

I guess I really need to start planning for the long-term, instead of just going with the flow like I have always been. Long-term plans/goals that shouldn't be restricted to my current circumstances, because if it's something I really want to attain, I'll have to work hard for it and find means and ways to shape my circumstances into one that permits me to achieve it.

So. I have decided to come up with new year resolutions hahaha since it happens to be the right time. Not gonna write them here though, I'll just keep it with me somewhere in my room hehe.

May 2017 be an eventful and blessed year for my family and friends. Just stay healthy and happy :)

Photos were taken on the second last day of 2016, when I finally got my ass out of the house haha.

Angela Aki 手紙 ～拝啓 十五の君へ～

Even though I couldn't understand the lyrics when I first heard it, this song just had all the feels simply from the piano and vocals. I realised there's a Mandarin version of this song (which probably explains why it sounded familiar) but nahhh original is good hahaha.


Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

I’m 15 and there’s something worrying me
That I can’t talk to anyone about

If I write a letter to my future self,
Surely I could confide truly to myself

Now it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
I'm someone who is about to disappear
What words should I trust to continue?
This heart has been shattered too many times,
though it hurts me, I live the present
Now I live the present

Dear you,
Thanks to the 15 years old you
I have something to tell you

If you keep asking yourself what and where you should be
The answer will become clear

The stormy sea of youth is hard but
A boat of dreams will take you to the edge of tomorrow

Now, don't be defeated, don't cry
When you feel like you’re going to disappear
Just believe in your own voice to keep walking
Even an adult like me gets hurt and has sleepless nights
But I'm living the bittersweet present

There's meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing

Now it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
I'm someone who is about to disappear
What words should I trust to continue?

Now, don't be defeated, don't cry
When you feel like you’re going to disappear
Just believe in your own voice to keep walking

No matter what stage of your life you’re in
You can’t get by without going through sadness
Show me a smile, let’s live in the present
Let’s live in the present

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness