I was talking to Gauri a few days ago about some things and I was kinda taken aback by the word that I had used. Was that how I actually felt without myself realising? I rely on intuition quite often I guess. Just that takes me some time to decipher what I'm feeling.

ANYWAYS. It's the last week of school omg. So many things due on Friday :O Only one more week to study before the first paper on the 23rd omgggggg. Im so dead x.x I'm not even kidding.

Jiayou everyone! Legggooooooo

You know what's more demoralizing than not knowing how to do your tutorials or even not doing well for a test?

It's when you feel like you can't even contribute much for a project.

Not that I want to slack, I actually spent hours working on modeling that question, but it still turned out with tons of mistakes lol. Even during discussions, I don't even know what to comment hah.

What on earth am I doing here man seriously. But where else do I belong? Can I not get a degree ugh.

I haven't really been blogging much recently because of so many things happening :O

I'm currently feeling rather overwhelmed by the amount of things that are gonna soon be due (assignments and projects) plus quizzes in two week's time OMG I'm gonna dieeeee. I've been lagging behind for tutorials since mid-terms but what's new this seems to always happen for the semesters -.- Each week has just been catching up with work, attempting to do tutorials but it's almost always never successful, spending time with people, settling summer school stuff (which I'm so looking forward to!) and omg lab reportssss.

I have to confess that I've not been able to cross off all the to-dos in my planner.... :/

That being said, this semester has also been much more happening than the previous semester haha. I have been meeting with friends more regularly (especially dhs peeps) and going out more frequent. Maybe that's why I'm lagging behind so terribly LOL. But yea time has been well-spent with the right people! :) Life is so much better this way haha..............before I die during finals :P

I'm kinda amazed at how things turned out/are turning out. It's a foreign experience to me and tbh it feels kinda scary to really open up yourself to someone, but it's nice having someone to depend on! :P

Alma

Holy shit this is so creepy :O

Just within these two days I was reminded twice that there's always a back story to everyone. So don't be too early to judge.

A quote from one of my favourite books (that we were made to read in Dunman haha):
"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view — until you climb into his skin and walk around in it."

Side note: Harper Lee passed away just last week I think :( RIP.

End of a chapter

Wow. I didn't think it would come across as such a huge relief.

That's why I said it's more of a positive thing than negative, so don't worry bro.

Thanks once again.

Even if what I'm doing doesn't make much of a difference, it doesn't matter because this is what I sincerely want to do.

Maybe sometimes we're not meant to be a hero, but a silent guardian.

Wow I'm applying what I learnt from watching my GEK lecture video this morning hahaha. A quote from Batman:

"He's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now. So we'll hunt him. Because he can take it. Because he's not our hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector. A dark knight."