fox capture plan / wonderwall

Heh a cover of Wonderwall :)



P.s. This is Yuxin's theme song to me HAHA.

Fox Capture Plan / Attack on fox

HAH! What did I say about j-drama OST? Hahaha.

Wheehee jazzy jazz jazz ^^



Please don't attack the poor fox :'(

Fox Capture Plan / Butterfly Effect

Yay to more amazing music :)



The song sounds like a soundtrack that can be used in Japanese dramas haha I can just imagine it. Maybe that's why I like it :P

Heyyyy.

I really can't wait for the last paper on Tuesday to be over. Then I can start to seriously think about my life and the direction I should be headed towards.

I need something to work towards to otherwise all that I'm doing right now is just meaningless to me, and when I don't see the point of doing something, why should I do it?

Dude that's not the way to do things..

Where's the basic courtesy?

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First paper in two hours' time! Let's gogogo 

Battle Born - The Killers

Somehow listening to this song always makes me want to fight on :)

May you be in a better world with your God

You had been a really brave and positive person during the last couple of months. Looking back, it probably was a right decision to not let you know about the number of days you had left as estimated by the doctor; turns out that you lived longer than that. Eventually as your condition deteriorated over the weeks, I guess you became aware about the situation even without anyone telling it to you explicitly.

I visited you about 3 or 4 times during this period of time and each time I went, your condition had clearly worsened from the previous visit. The last time I saw you was just 3 days ago. You were unable to speak by then and couldn't even open your eyes probably because of the heavy dosage of Morphine. It was really sad seeing you just lie there, not being able to respond to the people around you (I believe that you were able to hear us talking). I knew I would never be able to hear your voice again. I cannot imagine how I would feel if I was in that position. Frustrated? Useless?

I wanted to talk to you since it was probably the last time I could do so, but as usual I didn't know how to show my affection well, especially since we weren't very close. Still, I really enjoyed talking to you because you gave off a very warm vibe. It almost didn't feel like you were my aunt (my mum's cousin in fact). You were very dedicated in taking care of your mother for many years until she passed away two years ago and that was something I really respected you for. It's a pity you didn't much time to spend more time on yourself, before you were aware of your illness. I remember my mum saying that she asked if you had any dying wishes/things to let go off and what you said was that being unmarried, there weren't many things you had to worry about, but you felt regretful for being unable to spend more time with your sister (who is also unmarried and they took care of their mother together). Even when you were terminally ill, you were considerate and put others before yourself.

Why do many good/nice people usually end up dying early? WHY. This is something I can never understand.

Once again, what is left are just memories. But what the hell are memories? They are just something that you could end up easily losing in the future.

I realised that the thing that I miss most from people that I have lost is their laughter. Whenever I think of them, I recall hearing their laughter; something that is very distinct of each and every person, which makes it all the more precious. (p.s. I really really miss my grandma's cute laughter.)

Hope that you are in a better place right now. RIP.

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Don't worry guys, I'm fine. Just penning down my thoughts over this period of time.