https://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/singaporescene/peek-life-chee-soon-juan-050517946.html

I haven't really been keeping up with the general elections this year, but I stumbled upon this post regarding Dr Chee Soon Juan. Quite an old post though. Regardless of whether you are pro-government or anti-government, everything that Dr Chee and his family has gone through and sacrificed (as a result of him being an active opposition member over these years) is definitely worth admiration. Both his wife and him have doctorates, you wouldn't have expected them to end up living in a small apartment with three of their children. He could have been able to provide his family with more comfortable lives but no he chose the difficult path, but a path that he deemed right.

Tbh I don't know everything about him as of now, about what he did that caused him to be jailed, but what really resonated with me were his words:

"I'll tell them I'm bankrupt because I was sued, in very simple terms, and they come around and understand. They know and accept it," he says. "I don't hide it from them, it's not like it's a shameful thing. It's how you deal with it. They understand."

Despite what he has been through, Chee said it was every single experience that has made him the person he is.

"Some (decisions) turn out to be the worst ones ever in life, (and) you look back and say, why did I do it in a certain way, but if you didn't do it, you wouldn't learn from it.

"So in a sense you don't look back and regret because you'll find they were very valuable teaching moments, if you will… This is who you are… and if you do learn from it, you become that much better for it," he said.

It's pretty much what I believe in. Which is similar to the title of this blog: Amor Fati. It is a Latin phrase (I actually got to know about it from one of Epik High's song title hahaha) which basically means the love of one's fate. Fate, it's a complex concept, but how I define fate personallt is everything that has taken place or will take place. Sure, you contemplate when making tough decisions, you require a leap of faith to do something, but when you eventually do it, it's all part of fate. So yeah, basically I believe everything is a part of fate. In other words, the phrase would then have the meaning of loving one's life, which is along the lines of Dr Chee's words.

Y'know, I really like this wallpaper of mine hahaha. Idk, I just like the feels you get from it ;)

Oh and probably also because I like foxes/wolves/dog breeds that look like foxes or wolves XD

Falling slowly

汪峰 - 存在

多少人走着却困在原地
多少人活着却如同死去
多少人爱着却好似分离
多少人笑着却满含泪滴

谁知道我们该去向何处
谁明白生命已变为何物
是否找个借口继续苟活
或是展翅高飞保持愤怒
我该如何存在

汪峰 - 春天里

I swear this guy is a freaking genius haha his songs are amazing, I love the instrumentals!! I was kinda surprised since I admit that I'm kinda biased against Chinese artists lol, but he's just too cool, my favourite judge on 中国好声音 ^^ Hmm but I still prefer clean singing styles over coarse-sounding ones like his :p Oh but his normal talking voice is damn sexy HAHAHAHA JUST SAYING~

Dudes. My almost finalised timetable for this sem after dropping 3121. I must must must rmb to go drop it tomorrow morning LOL. DROP DROP DROP LIKE BIRD'S DROPPINGS HEEEEEE.

Over the past 8 hours or so, I have been thinking of a rather crazy idea.

Just the thought of it makes me feel kinda tingly inside... The kind of feeling where you feel the excitement at the possibilities of what could happen, yet also feeling the anxiety at all the uncertainties.

...This can only be a positive vibe right? This is the way one should live life right? At least I feel so. Do things that can, at the simple thought of it, cause your heart to beat faster from the sheer excitement and the anxiousness about it. Don't most of such decisions often end up as one of the best decisions ever made?

I'm not gonna say what my idea is about now, I need to really think more about it first haha. Usually if I say things to early, they often don't end up materialising LOL.

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Anyway, I AM SO FED UP WITH 2121 TUTORIAL RAWR. I spent many hours trying to do two of the questions but no, I'm just no physics kid sigh. It's okay. I've always been a slow learner, just need more time and practice :/

Oh yea and I'll most likely be dropping my CN3121 module, because I'm totally unconfident of being able to juggle all 3 CN modules this sem, considering how 3121 is a module supposedly for year 3s (but I brought it forward to overload this sem). I don't want to be a cocky ass and not know my limits lol. I'm not smart, I'm a slow learner,  and I'm not hardworking enough (cuz I always end up giving in to sleep lol). I also don't want to risk neglecting 2122 and 2121. I rather build a stronger foundation with these two modules first. As to why I even overloaded with 3121 in the first place only to drop it now, I came to this decision of dropping it after going through 1.5 weeks of 2121 and 2122 lectures. Too much man haha it's only the first 1.5 weeks? Can't imagine how later chapters will be like...

Okayz that's all for today, goodnight.